the story begins ...

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He says: "...if u tink there's an issue, then i'm telling u ... "it's just a gimmick"..."Me says: "...but why do it??..."
He says: "...tu ah..."  (mcm selambe gitu reply nya)
He says: "...i told u it's only for a short term..."
Me says: "...what's short term?... it's been 4 months now ... am i to wait and see what happens 4 years later??.."
He says: "...it will not last ... it will not happen..."

Me says: "...than what's tat abt d engagement?..."
He laughs. He says: "...did u see anything happen?... told u it's a gimmick..."

He says: "...what makes u want to check those sms?..."
Me says: "...cos i'm curious..."
He says: "...no! what makes u want to check? ... did u see me checking ur phone? ... why i didn't check them? ..."
Me says: "...cos there's nothing for u to see..."
He says: "...why didn't i check urs?..."
Me says: "...cos u trust me? ..." (my tone is softer ... like don't want the word 'trust' to be heard ... hmmm)He says: "...u say it ... there's ur answer ..."

Me says: "...i can't take another blow ... if it fails this time ... i rather jump off the building ..."
He says: "..what makes u so sure that i can take another blow... i told u they will not last ..."conclusion?? ... life goes on ... it's just another day ...
met him at nite ... all as usual ... nothing peculiar ... nothing different ...
he is the same man i met 9 months ago ... and still the same man i met today ...
to pursue and press further ... it will just iritates him ...
to close the chest and kept it there ... maybe that's for the best ...
He says: "..you see eh woman ni ... tak de pasal dia cari pasal ... if u didn't read those sms, u tink it will trigger? u tink we will have this conversation ... told u i am who i am ... the same one u met 9 mths ago ... the same one now ... i dun change ... pple change ..."
He says: "...if anything is wrong ... u will know it ... even w/o u reading those sms ... but did u sense anything wrong? ... did u see anything wrong? ... what u see ard u, ard me ... that is it ... i dun hide ..."
He says: "... i admit i do kept secrets ... some things that u dun need to know now ... maybe later ..."
Me says: "...why not?
He says: "...would u like to learn the basic of a subject ... or to major and specialise in that subject? ... which is better? ..."
Me says: "... to know the basic is good enough then not knowing any at all..."
He says: "... exactly ... "caught me there ... what he says makes sense ... though i tink as a woman ... it's still not enough ... what is enough anyway ... no human will be contented with "just enough" ... they want more ... but how much more? we never set the limits ...

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