JusMoi ... My lif3sT0ry ...

 I had the weirdest dream last night or i would say this morning.  Till now ... it just seems so real.  it may seem that i made it up ... but let me just tell the story how it is  (as far as i can recall) there's this ang mo guy. Good looking and indeed a very nice guy.  i am certain he is not my husband.  but not sure though if he is a friend.  can't be too sure if he has a partner or i am his partner. so this involves a baby.  i'm certain it's a girl. she's probably less than a year old.  got to a point where he packed up her stuffs. just in a duffel bag.  both of us are sad.  sad with that longing but yet we kind of leave it to fate.  we weren't fighting ... nor are we stopping from what is happening.  he carried her in her carrier.  with his duffel bag and walked away.  and i just looked.  it probably mean nothing.  or maybe it meant something.  i am missing #lilone every seconds of my breath....

  Wow ... look at that ...  how time indeed flies.  after 2015, no entry for 2016.  then i'm back with just 1 posting for 2017.  Then back again in 2018 with 1 posting only.  in 2 days ... 12 Aug 2021 ... it's been 5yrs nenek have left us.  so much has happen then .... 2019 my marriage is at a verge of shattered. but i guess i decide to glue it back and live with it again.  was it all worth it? looking back ... i believe Allah has better plans not that i have much to think ... but i went with the flow.  it started sometime early 2019 to Aug 2019.  on a few occasions i hook up with old frens from GMPS.  i had an offside company retreat mid of Aug.  the space we had away from each other does us good ... for me at least.    D's birthday celebration was an extra blow for him.  We both put up a good front spending time with the family celebration the Jul-Aug birthdays.  1 Nov 2019 was our 1st and last counselling...