JusMoi ... My lif3sT0ry ...

Berdoa and bersabar ... slagi mampu.  Allah tak akan menguji aku lebih yg aku mampu. ::(

Because i love him more than he loves me. ::(

Finally since i move to blog  http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2012/09/time-to-move-on.html  ... only today 11/26/14 i finally managed to clean up and update my blog. Those photos that was previously in Multiply album i managed to download and save them; there may be duplicate somewhere ... but i guess no harm done lah except that it's taking my harddisk space and my external harddisk space is screaming for space ... hehehehe i will update my life going every now and then as i see fit. (anyway no one reads my blog hahahaha) but if there are ... Thank you. Do drop me a comment or just say 'Hi' at least i knew there are humans out there reading this blog. hehehe Holiday / Travel Few things i notice while cleaning up my blog, we never get to go Australia which we plan since 2005 and again on 2011 ( http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2011/02/australia-we-coming.html ) Nor do we get to go Fraser Hill which we also plan since 2005 and again talk tot abt it in 2011 ( http://jusmoi.blogspo...

I'm not the kind of lady who had plenty of shoes ... To date i have 5 flats, 2 snickers, 1 boot (i use to go ghosthunting), 1 track shoes (hubby bought for me when he went on 1 of his work trips), 4 slippers (not including my bedroom slippers and at workdesk) when i had that many flats recently that i wear to work ... i change them every now and then depending on my mood (the same i did to perfume i wear daily ... i pick the ones i want to use depending on my mood) ... then i came to realise that each shoes that we wear gives us a different feeling ... which then i realise the saying "...try walking in one's shoes..." Now then i appreciate why people have many many shoes ... hehehe i sure makes me feel good walking in different one rather than the same one every time.

2 coach bag 1 coach wallet 3 wristlets 3 watches 2 pawn tickets 2 handphones i wish i can get 1.5K for these ... Then all will be settled with some $$ in hand for my trip ... else i need at least 800 to get by ... on top of that need to spend on season parking for his lorry and the mend the washing machine ... tk kesudahan susah aku ni eh?

Something to share from Md Khair ( https://www.facebook.com/mdkhairmdnoor?fref=ts ) ... Renungkan la ... Untuk para isteri Apabila suami meninggi suara, Maafkanlah semoga reda geloranya ... Apabila suami bermasam muka, Senyumlah semoga keluhuran anda itu mengubati jiwanya ... Apabila suami seakan tidak berterimakasih, Doakanlah agar is mensyukuri ni'mat dari Illahi ... Apabila suami menyakitkan hati, Sabarlah kerana ganjaran dariNya melebihi ... Untuk para suami Apabila isteri buat 1 kesilapan, Pandanglah 10 kebaikan yang pernah ia lakukan... Apabila isteri lupa 1 perkara, Usah lupa 10 perkara lain yang ia ingat ... Apabila isteri susahkan suami 1 hal, Ingatlah betapa susahnya si isteri bawa zuriat kita dalam mual-mual ...

imagine this weight on my shoulder ... but the fact that the weight is invisible is so much unbearable and much more pain to carry along each day ... no one knows ... no one felt it ... but MYSELF! i worries too much ... fact! but hey ... how can i not worry ... can i let you worry instead? when it was told ... shared ... i tot there's a solution where we can share this weight  ... but hey no ... it's for me to decide WAT to do ... HOW to do it ... and all you do is strike it off the list ... and when i'm in trouble ... all you do is question me ... give me that "I-am-not-happy-with-you" look ... I worry about my weight I worry about my body shape I worry about my body size I worry about my menses pain I worry that each time when i pull my panties, i've stained my panty liner I worry about the acnes and marks on my face I worry about the bulging tummy I worry that the monsters toilet stain I worry that the monsters toilet stinks I worry that my room stinks...

for some reasons ... everyone even makhluk yg tk ku nampak tanya apa khabar ku ... trima kasih hanya itu yg mampu ku ucapkan ... i'm fine as it is ... cuma penat.com maybe ... and i'm financially very tight ... doakan agar pintu rezki ku dilapangkan ... bulan baik yg akan tiba ni ... ku pohon kepada mu ya Allah ... kau lapangkan lah pintu rezki ku ... semoga dapat ku berikan yg baik untuk suami ku ... keluarga ku dan diri ku sendiri ... harta duni memang tk ke mana ... tapi perlu untuk kita menampung idup seharian ...

Ya Allah ... if you really really really love me ... please take my life ... i plead you ... pleasssssssssssssseeeeeeee ....

not sure if it's a dream ... or probably my sub conscious tots ... here goes .... we were like at a wedding ... up at a secluded, out-of-the-world, away-from-urban kind of village. it looks like a cousin ... family one ... cos it seems there are makciks and little cousins. then something happen ... i can't recall what ... i went back to the room and packed up my things ... magazines ... stuffs that i brought with me ... followed by him behind me ... reluctantly picking up my stuff and passing it to me. when i was grabbing my stuffs from the bed ... an aunt came by and said that i'm wearing her ring ... then i realise that i had 2 rings on my fingers ... and i gave it back to her ... and told her that i found it at the hidden side of the bed ... i wore it since i'm not sure who it belongs to ... then while stuffing my stuff in my bag ... he came behind me and hug me tight ... so tight that i can physically feel it ... and he's crying ... he hide his face behind ...

over the weekend we went to Sunway Lagoon. Perfect time for me to take leave next day to rest. Got back at 3am yesterday, woke up at 8am Since i brought back all the dirty clothes ... the dry ones of yesterday removed and lipat ... and the new wash are up to dry ... dapur dah mcm dobi ... hehehe ... of course mum wasn't home to cook ... so i made simple lunch; stir-fried beef and cabbage-carrot eat with plain rice. had our lunch at 3pm. once done with the laundry ... i decide to try my hands on jemput2 (recipe courtesy of Sis Zizah) ... jus in case the "piranhas" got back and hungry ... so since i'm no cook ... i jus did the jemput2 ... jadi tk jadi ... hmm she got to be the judge ... Piping hot swimming in the kuali ... All ready to eat ... ok ok but mcm ade yg kureng ... hmmm .... Sis Zizah nya still the best ahh ... esp lembik2 ... heheh   berintikan prawn ... all the day's work is accompanied by dear 100 plus ... u do quenched the thirst out of me ...

The day has finally arrive ... ari2 yg kita tunggu2 ... saat2 yg kita nanti2 kan ... 18 Aug 2008 in the early afternoon after d attended his court at 11am, he called me. And he announce that it's all over. He does not have to attend anymore court. 25Aug, he is to collect his court order. on 28Nov he is to collect his divorce letter. And he did lafaz talak today. I hav a mix feelings. One of which i feel for d and his ex-wife finally severing their marriage after 5yrs. But to think about it, the marriage has died long before i met d; 2 yrs ago. Secondly i'm happy that we will finally be able to plan for our future. Something that we both have long for and been waiting patiently for. When finally this day comes, everything else comes gushing to us. Both our parents are eager to wed us esp my parents. The soonest the better. BUT we're cashless, and financially we're not prepared. But let's look at it on the positive side, i'm sure we can manage it somehow ... in...

adakah aku kekasih gelap mu? aku pasti kau bukan kekasih gelap ku? dan ku pasti kau adalah cinta ku yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidup ku dan hanya pada mu ku berikan sisa cinta ku yang panjang dalam hidupku ... adakah tangisan ini perlu? if only i knew the answers ...

Semua orang boleh mendengar ... tapi tak semua mulut boleh di tutup ... NEVER EVER TRUST ANYONE!!! No matter how close you are ... Not everyone understand ... The true meaning of CONFIDENTIALITY ... Everyone has only 1 face why opt for 2? ... A beautiful frenship ... will only remain beautiful ... if you keep to your end of the bargain ...

it's been an eventful week ... kalo kaum Cina confirm pantang ... tapi kita ni anggap ni semua takdir ... "kun fa ya kun" terjadi lah ia ... just ytdy i witness selesai nya perjalanan d's aunt di dunia ... then pergilah dia ke alam barzah ... it's a solemn moment ... i may not be as close to the arwah but we met on 2 occasions ... families get together, lost ones came back, and most importantly of all it's a reminder to kita semua ... "... yang dunia ni hanya persinggahan ... sementara je ... esok lusa pulang lah kita ke asal ..." al-maklum kita ni sering ter-forget ... yg pergi tk kan kembali ... hanya doa kita yg mengiringi ... ber-sedekah lah pada yg hidup maupun yg mati ... amin! amin! amin! kepada cucu arwah nya yg akan dilangsungkan this wkend ... "...Life has to go on ... i bet though she's not with us physically ... she's always with us in our heart ..." (she may not be reading this ... but my sincere doa to her) and o...

i realise lately that my immune system is not as strong as it use to be. i remember when i was younger, i fell ill like once a year ... and always on my birthday. but it seems lately i fell ill like twice a yr ... the last time i got really sick was late last yr ... http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2006/11/achhooo.html  ... skrg ni middle of this yr sakit agi ... and the last lasted for a weeks ... yg skrg pun sama ... dah 2 weeks dah ... hmmm ... ape dah jadi ngan me ni?? "mesin" dah nk rosak ke?? time to antar overhaul or scrap??? wakakakaak my bro got the bug first ... lucky for him he gets well within days ... he can't afford to get sick anyway ... his wedding is just around the corner ... terfikir jap this morning ... it felt like he just got engaged semlm ... ( http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2006/01/the-knot-is-tied.html http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2006/01/compliments.html http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2006/01/bro-engagement.html ) ... tup tup tup end thi...

Received this in my mailbox ... tot i share with all since i'm sure we all need a good reminder once in a while ... so everyone reading this ... EMBRACE!!! TIPS CINTAN CINTUN SUAMI ISTERI (or to everyone concern ... ) * Cium tangan suami dan dahi isteri setiap kali sebelum berpisah ke tempat kerja masing-masing. * Jika berpisah lebih dari sehari seperti untuk tugasan luar daerah tambah rutin harian tadi dengan pelukan dan ciuman di bibir. * Walau sesibuk mana sekali pun, luangkan masa untuk menelefon pasangan sekurang-kurangnya sekali walau sekadar untuk bertanya apa yang sedang dilakukan. * Sentiasa ucapkan kata-kata sayang seperti I love you sepenuh hati sebelum keluar kemana-mana, menamatkan perbualan di telefon dan sebelum tidur. * Sentiasa mencari peluang untuk makan tengah hari bersama kerana pastinya ia tiada gangguan anak-anak jika pada hari berkerja. * Amalkan bertanya apa yang berlaku sepanjang hari selepas pulang dari kerja sebagai tanda mengamb...