I'm lost ...

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i felt so lost ... tummy's not well ... felt nauseous ... just woke up ... just took my bath for the day ... my head is heavy ... tink i'll pop a couple of panadols later ... that should do the trick ... dun have any sleeping pill with me ... maybe if i drank the cough syrup it will do the trick as well ... maybe i should take the flu tablet ... that's drowsy enough ... sure to put me to sleep ... but i just woke up ... tink will i sleep again ... hmmmm ....

where is he?? dunno ... called didn't pick up my phone ... let me guess ... or it is let me assume ... he's sleeping ... yeah ... he's sleeping ... cos this morning when i called him at 7.15am to wake him up for work ... he's already outside ... said he's on his way home ... where did he go?? how am i to know ... he dun bother to tell me ... or maybe he tinks there is no need to let me know ...

he has a chance to tell me for god sake ... i called him about 11pm ... he said he's with someone ... when i said girl ... he said i talk nonsense ... but dun have to be secretive right ... if you're not hiding something from me ...

am i just being paranoid? or maybe i'm not? ...

my parents told me today that my bro will be getting engaged in sept ... my dad wants me to be tied down at the same time ... how do i tell them that i'm not sure if my relationship with him is going that way ... how do i tell them i'm pretty sure i'm not getting married ... for one he is 4 yrs younger than me ... he could possibly find someone of his age ... which he already did ... i'm just waiting for him to confess the truth to me ... maybe he will in due time ... soon ... brace myself!!!

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  1. XXXX YYYY22 July 2005 at 03:34

    dear, age doesn't matter in love..u got to raise up ur self-confidence and self-esteem and always remember that you are in control of your life. by having a companion, that is just a bonus.

    so u said u lost, how about now? dah kembali ke lum? kalau u hilang lama-lama, nanti journal sapa lak i nak baca?hehehhehehe..i ni dah jadi ur fan ah...hehehe *wink*

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  2. JusMoi -22 July 2005 at 08:50

    u ni memang ... dah jadi my avid fan gitu eh ... it's nice knowing some1 do care and some1 out thr bothers to read my penned thoughts ... at least i always know i'm not alone ... and never will be ...

    having a companion ni bukan je bonus ... but a gift of a lifetime if it lasts ...

    me s'krg mcm not here not thr ... still ard ... dunno which path to take ... but i'll be ard ... till my last breath .. insyaAllah ... read onnnn ... hehehehe

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