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i'm done reading another Barbara Delinsky book ... Suddenly ... There's goes my Saturday ... wrote a letter that i'm gonna post out in my webbie ... for my dear eyes only ... i'm not gonna give the link here ... heheheh ... nothing mushy ... just pouring what's on my mind ... Ask him out for dinner ... but hmmmm ... he went out with his buddy instead ... went out w/ buddy ok ... but if out w/ her ... i will not forgive him for lying ... i'm having a bad tummy ache ... it started from thursday nite abt 3am ... wake him up but got ignore ... ya lah ... he's fast asleep i dun expect him to do anything ... maybe give me a hug ke ... heheheh my frens said gastric probably ... took like 8 panadol extra ytdy ... took 2 antacid ytdy ... took 4 antacid today ... the ache is still there but bearable ... the ever first time i'm in such pain ... mati tak nak ... aiyoh!!!

He says: "...if u tink there's an issue, then i'm telling u ... "it's just a gimmick" ..." Me says: "...but why do it??..." He says: "...tu ah..."  (mcm selambe gitu reply nya) He says: "...i told u it's only for a short term..." Me says: "...what's short term?... it's been 4 months now ... am i to wait and see what happens 4 years later??.." He says: "...it will not last ... it will not happen..." Me says: "...than what's tat abt d engagement?..." He laughs. He says: "...did u see anything happen?... told u it's a gimmick..." He says: "...what makes u want to check those sms?..." Me says: "...cos i'm curious..." He says: "...no! what makes u want to check? ... did u see me checking ur phone? ... why i didn't check them? ..." Me says: "...cos there's nothing for u to see..." He says: "...why didn't i chec...

i thought i dun need to shed those tears anymore ... but i'm wrong ... i shldn't hav done what i've done ... but if i dun't i wldn't know ... my reaction was pretty slow though ... but i guess the impact is just too great ... "...calm as the river i am ... but strong current underneath that kills..." soon after ... tears flows ... all hunger and tiredness not felt at all ... i bathe ... but didn't realise i'm done ... i checked my emails but i didn't know if i read anything ... nothing gets registered ... it's like being there but not there ... soul-less ... wat shld i do? what wld u do if u were me? what if you knew ur bf had girl-A? what if you knew, he got his fren to ask me where to get flowers and the flowers meant for his girl-B? what if you knew that he and girl-A had plans to get enaged? even had the engagement date and anniversary date noted in the calendar? what if u suspect that they slept together? how wld u felt i...

my sms to him this morning ... "... i can't bring myself to look u in ur eyes ... cos i dun want u to c d tears in mine ... u r my heartbeat n i can't imagine wat it's like if u slip away ..." Abstract from the song "Without You" sang by Kimberly Locke with Clay Aiken "... Without you, where do I belong? ... Without you, how can I go on? ... And no love but yours will ever do ... Tell me how am i supposed to live my life? ... Without you ..."

Rating: ★★★★★ Category: Music Genre: Other Artist: Kimberly Locke with Clay Aiken Never even thought to cry When I heard you say goodbye Never said where you were going And theres no laughter in the air Only silence everywhere And so much left unspoken Since you've been gone I haven't been the same I wish that I could see Who's to blame Without you, where do I belong? Without you, how can I go on? And no love but yours will ever do Tell me how am i supposed to live my life? Without you oooooo Was in lost in you and ne To the point I couldn't see That what we had was dying Now it's all that I can do To see photographs of you And stop myself from crying I should learn to live without your love Got so many memories But it's not enough Without you, where do i belong? Without you, how can i go on? And no love but yours will ever do Tell me how am I supposed to live my life Without you? I feel helpless and oh so alone Like...

i didn't ask for it ... i didn't tink about it ... the tears just trickles away ... naturally ...

Enjoy!! ...

i miss him so muchhh that it aches ... maybe i'm wrong about him ... maybe those are just my * paranoid thoughts ... i pray that it's just my * paranoid thoughts ... i hope it's just my * paranoid thoughts ... maybe he does love me afterall ... maybe he does care afterall ... maybe ... just maybe ... love just has it's way of showing ... we just need to see with our hearts and not with our naked eyes ... *Paranoid means exhibiting or characterized by extreme and irrational fear and suspicion ... definitely not distrust ... no! no! no! no! 

Hope ur Monday is great ... cos i'm kinda of hyper today ... heheheheh Received this from a fren ... his wish on every Monday morning ... (about his boss)

another boring long weekend is over ... no activity ... just sleep sleep sleep ... hav not even finish my book ... haiz!!! was having a short conversation with my mum this morning ... she started by just popping a qns ... wondering if my grandma did came to the mosque ... and that's when i ask what if i follow grandma back to London the next time she travels back ... (well ... my grandma is actually my aunt mum-in-law ... she commute from london to singapore every 6 months at least ... since her daughter and family is in London cos the son-in-law was transferred there ...) and my mum replied ... it's up to me ... and ask why i want to go over?? ... quietly i answered cos i'm sulking ... i'm not sure where my relationship is going ... and i'm sure if i'm gone i will not be missed ... and that's where our conversation ends ...

Yup ... we had our family dinner at Lau Pa Sat last Friday ... hahaha ... not forgetting the food that we savour ... yum yum ...

i felt so lost ... tummy's not well ... felt nauseous ... just woke up ... just took my bath for the day ... my head is heavy ... tink i'll pop a couple of panadols later ... that should do the trick ... dun have any sleeping pill with me ... maybe if i drank the cough syrup it will do the trick as well ... maybe i should take the flu tablet ... that's drowsy enough ... sure to put me to sleep ... but i just woke up ... tink will i sleep again ... hmmmm .... where is he?? dunno ... called didn't pick up my phone ... let me guess ... or it is let me assume ... he's sleeping ... yeah ... he's sleeping ... cos this morning when i called him at 7.15am to wake him up for work ... he's already outside ... said he's on his way home ... where did he go?? how am i to know ... he dun bother to tell me ... or maybe he tinks there is no need to let me know ... he has a chance to tell me for god sake ... i called him about 11pm ... he said he's with someone ...

arggghhhhh ... I'm still alive ...

Rating: ★★★★★ Category: Music Genre: Other Artist: James Blunt My life is brilliant. My love is pure. I saw an angel. Of that I'm sure. She smiled at me on the subway. She was with another man. But I won't lose no sleep on that, 'Cause I've got a plan. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw you face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you. Yeah, she caught my eye, As we walked on by. She could see from my face that I was, Fucking high, And I don't think that I'll see her again, But we shared a moment that will last till the end. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw you face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. There must be an angel with a smile o...

Rating: ★★★★★ Category: Music Genre: Other Artist: Damien Rice And so it is Just like you said it would be Life goes easy on me Most of the time And so it is The shorter story No love, no glory No hero in her sky I can't take my eyes off of you I can't take my eyes off you I can't take my eyes off of you I can't take my eyes off you I can't take my eyes off you I can't take my eyes... And so it is Just like you said it should be We'll both forget the breeze Most of the time And so it is The colder water The blower's daughter The pupil in denial I can't take my eyes off of you I can't take my eyes off you I can't take my eyes off of you I can't take my eyes off you I can't take my eyes off you I can't take my eyes... Did I say that I loathe you? Did I say that I want to Leave it all behind? I can't take my mind off of you I can't take my mind off you I can't take my mind off ...

Looking at the nature of our work ... I just hope we won't be like that dude in the video ... hahahaha ...

It's Fridaaaaaaaaaaaaay ... :) Well ... Check this video out and you will know how i feel today ... Furthermore, boss is not around (He's in KL office). Yahoooooooooooooo ...

When things get tough, always remember ... Faith doesn't get you around trouble, it gets you through it !!

I was talking to my buddy yesterday ... we both are in pathetic state .... We are done with work ... but can u believe it??!! ... i sit just behind her ... and yet we communicate thru' online msn messenger ... weird har!! chat chat chat ... time just pass by ... it's half past six ... so we decide to leave office ... she had plan for the evening ... going partying .. me?? my pathetic self ... heading home ... (hoping that i get to meet my bf today ... but it's just wishful thinking lah ... cos it's not usually the case for Fridays ...) we were sitting at tiong bahru ... enjoying our Old Chang Kee ... (tried the carrot cake ... ok ok ah ... but my fav still sotong ball lah ... ) that's when she said "...now my suitcase is open ... my stuff all over the place ... i felt like putting all in my suitcase ... close it and move on ..." and i said "...my suitcase are all packed ... it's just waiting for me to pick up and go ..." and she said "...

What exactly is a journal ? It basically means " A personal record of occurrences, experiences, and reflections kept on a regular basis; a diary. " so it's really alrite to write long long story in here ... heheheheh What about blog then? Blog is non other than an online diary ... so ... be it a blog or a journal ... they are the same actually ... only journal is normally use for record ... on paper ... but blog ... online ... that's the diff ... but they all records down your personal occurrences ... experiences ... reflections ... on a regular basis ... that's it!

These are taken at Lake District, the largest of England's National Parks located in England's north-west.  taking a break from school. http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2006/03/bradford-from-3-to-23-jul-2004.html

It was ok a minute ago ... when i was playing around w/ my homepage colors and all ... Right after i try to upload staind song ... IT HAPPENS !!! Did you see it??? Did you see my homepage go crazy???!!!! on top of that ... did you see the Staind song didn't get uploaded?? Why??? why?? Arghhh .. pls ... don't make my page go out of shape ... argggghhhhh ... Dah lah i'm bored ... dead bored ... got stuck at home doin' rubbish stuff ... lazing around .... rimassssss .... and now my homepage lak giv trouble ... ahhh ... shut down ahhh ... go sleep ... Nite!!!! arghhhhh ........ cont'd ... ( after playing with the homepage layout setting again ... just before i shut the pc off ) tried w/ the linear setting ... alrite ... tried back w/ the block setting ... macam siakkkkk ... it goes tumbling all over the place ... iirrkkkk ... gerammmm ... cont'd again ... ( played with the homepage layout setting again ... tak nak shut down ) ok ... i'm gonna leave it as linear ...