a hurtful weekend ...

"Sungei yang tenang tak semestinya tak de current ..."

the whole week is beautiful. d has been great. i'm looking forward to a weekend spending time with him. despite my painful menses and "open pipe flow" i'm looking forward to see d ...
i went for my facial on sat. Pegi kat Blk 320 je. Dekat2. malas nk gi jauh2. later after facial muka sembab2 nk jln jauh2 ... malas nya. so i chose Advance Beauty  Express. The most corner shop. the owner Cris ... jambu seh. procelain complexion. initially she's like not very friendly but before she touch my face, she's alrite. i went for normal facial cost me $40. then i had my upper lip wax $10. she remove my facial hair on my chin $10. she tried the diamond peel on me for half the price $30 (UP $60)
I've signed up for 3 more treatment. that's my plan actually. so she recommended me whitening treatment that includes an peel (not sure if i got that spelt correctly) but basically a treatment to treat acne. the facial will come with eye brow trimming. i will get her to remove facial hair from my chin too. she also gave me 1 free diamond peel. most likely i will take up another diamond peel at $60. need to plan when to go. she suggest not later than 14 days. best time to come back 10-14 days. need to plan.
What's this 'Diamond Peel'?
The Diamond Peel provides a gentle, yet effective, mechanical peeling of the skin called microdermabrasion. It can help to minimize the most difficult skin conditions, or to rejuvenate and maintain the health of the skin. It features a patented dual control system and adjustable applicator head that delivers a steady, effective stream of find crystals directly onto the skin. The old surface is removed leaving it smooth, fresh, and rejuvenated.
Sunday we went to soccer. d pick me up. everything thing seems to be ok till d got a call from Hidayah. who's that?? hmm he says 1 of his old biskut. padahal his mobile no ni aru 3 yrs ... so i guess it's those biskut he knew when he is with me ... though he denies it. i got piss when she message him asking him what time is his soccer. which proves that he did spoke to her the night before. it hurt me so much. we've exchange nasty words. he raised his voice. he called me names. i raised my voice at him too. this is the worst fights that we had. we've gone to the limit. till i qns loudly if he still wants to marry me. does he? shld he? could he?
tergamak d did all this. mane d sorok mi biler d bual2 ngan biskut d ni? "ya la mi hanya patung yg tk berperasaan ... yg bodoh ... yg slalu di perbodohkan. dah malas nk main ngan mi ... d cari lain. nasib kau lah ti! sigh!!!" i cried my hearts out ... cried so much that it hurts. i've ask ian to give me a hug ... and she did with soothing words of comfort that it brought me to sleep.
"i forgive him. mi maafkan d. tapi pls lah d plssssss don't hurt me again. plsssss dun bodoh2 kan mi agi. kalo di hargai cinta kita ni ... plsssss d help mi. help mi and stop hurting mi."
We've yet to send out cloth to tailor since she's not ard ytdy. we also didn't go bt panjang cos she's not ard too. so got to plan another day.
I've suggested to d that i tot of featuring our wedding escot in brita minggu. i've written to kak hanim from brita minggu. waiting for her reply.
next week we've a wedding escot. d shld be talking to the guys abt the escot. i might be asking if the girls would want to wear similar colored baju. well no harm asking kan?
we will miss this year D&D. d has a soccer game on the friday evening. so we will follow the whole squad. another game on sat evening. sun they plan to head to genting. and back on monday.
then next year we'll go bangkok feb or march ... that's when d will take his first flight since we won't make it for this KL trip. and next year d will take his class 4. if he pass, he will continue to take his class 5. for me, if all works well ... budget ade ... i'll got for my class 3. and i want us to save 10% of our pay (after deducting the necessary pay out). that's probably like $200 for me and $40 from d ... we'll do it ... i'll talk to him soon abt this.
i've reminded d to apply leave for 27Nov. I've also request from HR to have my pay received by 27Nov morning.