ya ya ya ... it's been a while ...

Dear Journal ...

i know i've been missing for a while ... "where did i go??"
no where ... been around ...
even my colleague miss me since she has not been seeing much of me around in office as well ...

"how's life?"
it has been wonderful ... nice in a way ... love in plenty of ways ...

"what i've learnt these past days??"
that ... Sometimes a lot of things are just not meant to be asks ... it's meant to be trusted and it's a "you knew ... so don't need to ask" thingy ...
though curiosity does kills the cat ... but it does not pay to be nosy ...
no matter how much you yearn to ask ... no matter how much you yearn to know ... it's best that some things are to be kept mum about ...
it's not easy ... it's the most difficult thing to do ... but somethings are just done that way ...
it may not make you feel the best of yourself ... but be contented with what you currently have ... having some is better than not having it at all ... having all may not be the best gifts after all ...

Thank you Dear ... thank you for teaching me life that i've never seen with my naked eyes ... thank you for showing me the love that is not always spoken but felt it's strong presense ...
Being with you i felt how it felt to be in suicidal mode ... to feel loss when you distance away ... i felt how it felt to tear for you whom i love so dearly when you're in pain ... physically, emotionally ... all i ask is to be loved and appreciated ...