i'm fell in love all over again ... loads of blissful moments ...

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Dear ...

THANK YOU!! I have such a lovely, blissful time with you for the past few days ...
i fell in love with you all over again ...
leaving u for the weekend ... u had ur fun at the paintball with ur frens ... while i had my "bumpy" fun trip to Fraser Hill with my family ...
part of me sure misses u ... that's without saying ... but i also know that u need sometime to be with your frens too ...

we catch two movies in a row ... watch 'Bewitched' on Monday nite at Cineleisure and 'Stealth' on Tuesday nite at Westmall ... both shows are worth watching ... especially when it's watch with you ... On Wednesday, not sure if u felt it ... but i chose to have dinner at Magic Wok cause i wanted to relive the first dinner we had together ... that's 10mths ago ... sorry you had to tolerate eating the baby squid ... hehehehe

you: why do you choose to be with me? ...
me: [pause] to put it lamely ... cos it's you ...
you: ya ... but why me? ... you have a choice ... but why me? ...
me: my choice is you ... and i made that choice 10mths ago ... nothing has change since ...
me: [in my heart ... talking within myself] how do i tell you that i love u? ... how do i express myself? ... how do i tell u that it just happen? ... how do i tell you that you've stole my heart? ... how do i tell u that i never cried for anyone more than i cry for you? ... how do i tell u that whenever u are angry or piss ... my heart just miss a beat? ... how do i tell u without hearing from u a day ... my mind go wild? ... how do i tell u that i felt jealous when u spoke/sms/called others? ... and it hurts me ... how do i tell you that i want to live with you ... and that's my choice ... a choice i made and there's no turning back ... i'll wait ... no matter how long it takes ... cos i rather be with you ... than not ...

i discovered that we do have something in common ... my appreciation to artsy stuff similarly bringing together your love for movie posters and postcards ... yeah!! we ended up spending $$ buying those posters but they are worth every penny spent ... someday when we had our own place, we can put together those posters, postcards and my comic collection in a room ... setting up an entertainment room ... filled with powerful theater-like system ... whoa!! just superb!! Let this not be a dream but something that we can look forward to ... someday ...

me: do 2 people need to have love to be together? ...
you: ya ... you need love to be together ...
me: what about care? does love and care comes together? ...
you: ya ...

i know u will not say the word ... u will not say you love me ... nor will you say you miss me ... but i assume my instincts and feel are right ... that you do ... just that you don't verbalise it ... nor do i but with you ... i tend to ... not sure why ... but i feel that sumtimes it just need to be told ... i wish someday i hear it from u ... i do hear it and feel it when i look into ur eyes ... but sumthings sounds better when it's heard ...

Thank you for your time, dear. Being with you for the past few days ... i can't express in words how much it means to me ... happy is not the right word, bliss is close to it ... if given a choice to turn back the clock, i'll do the same thing regardless ... let this not end ... let this be this forever ... till my last breath ...

love you lots ...
jusmoi ...

Comments

  1. XXXX YYYY12 August 2005 at 17:44

    gal, glad dat the two of u work things out..hopefully everything will be fine...

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  2. JusMoi -12 August 2005 at 20:36

    thanks dear ... it just another of those 'it just happen' ... but i'm pretty certain he makes an effort and i appreciate that ... just that he didn't verbalise it nor do i question it ... my wish?? ... all i ask for?? ... it stays ...

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