Weird dream

 I had the weirdest dream last night or i would say this morning. 

Till now ... it just seems so real. 

it may seem that i made it up ... but let me just tell the story how it is 

(as far as i can recall)

there's this ang mo guy. Good looking and indeed a very nice guy. 

i am certain he is not my husband. 

but not sure though if he is a friend. 

can't be too sure if he has a partner

or i am his partner.

so this involves a baby. 

i'm certain it's a girl.

she's probably less than a year old. 

got to a point where he packed up her stuffs.

just in a duffel bag. 

both of us are sad. 

sad with that longing but yet we kind of leave it to fate. 

we weren't fighting ... nor are we stopping from what is happening. 

he carried her in her carrier. 

with his duffel bag and walked away. 

and i just looked. 

it probably mean nothing. 

or maybe it meant something. 

i am missing #lilone every seconds of my breath. 

maybe that brought me to this dream. 

a dream that i can only dream. 

and i can never have a child of my own ... never in this world. 😔