breaking down ...
okay ... i think i'm breaking down soon ...
1. my non-stop menses but luckily after i went to see the TCM it stops finally 3 days ago after 3mths of bloody-changing-pampers-EVERYDAY! (also see: http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2008/06/my-worst-ever-marked-it-16-jun-2008.html)
2. kind of stress me out cos we're having open house this 5Nov. a good thing cos our frens wanted to see our place ... our family wanted to see our place ... this is the time!
3. bapak admitted to st luke's hospital in bt batok ... he's going to be there a long time ... but he is not helping ... he got the cheek to tell us and to even scold the student nurse when the tell the senior nurse that bapak is not taking his medicine ... WTF ... tk faham ke ape yg all these are strains to everyone and not just himself ... he practically calls me everyday ... setakat to ask what lan is doing ... hallooooo!! can't you just call lan and ask ... duhhhhhhhhh!!
4. mane mak called the other day and scold me cos d did not see her la ... did not see bapak la ... raya went off cepat didn't stay too long la ... then have iftar with my famili la (duhhh padahal anak dia sendiri wasn't there) ... she wanted to talk to d but d refuse ... dahhhh aku yg dgr dia nya bebel ... then d got the cheek to scold me and said y didn't i talk back to mak ... alllloooooo ... y didn't you??
5. d scolded me EVERYDAY!!! for little things ... like when suhaimi called to ask if d is joining the selai trip ... i should have said No. but i said will ask d and get back to him ... from behind once i hang up ... d said BODOH!!!!! asal jd bodoh!!! ckp je tk pegi ... ehhhhhhhhhhhhh yg dia tu kenapa tk ckp sendiri ngan suhaimi when he ask semlm tu ... and yet aku yg dia bodoh kan becos i didn't tell suhaimi that he is not going. apa salah nya kalo just said to me to tell him. i would have done it anyway ... but i will be less hurt.
6. the kids dah di sunat kan .. alhamdulilah all goes well. they are now running around. as usual the house in a mess. sigh!!!
7. it's alrite for d to wake up .. turn on the computer ... do whatever stuff ... see porn ... play game ... but it's NOT ALRITE for me.
8. coffee must always have ... dun have ... he will make my life miserable. even sitting down and take a breath or 2 is a NO-NO ... then he will said that i dun take care of him ... halllloooooo am i in the first place been taken care of?
9. when videos or photos i took turns alrite ... he didn't comment. didn't even said the pictures are nice for some of them. but he sure have to criticise them ... EVERY TIME! and make me feel so bad about it ... with his you-are-no-good-bodoh-woman-who-cannot-do-a-simple-task. sigh!
10. accompany me to the doc ... is as good as not there. everything i do myself. he just ade kan diri ... not supportive at all ... i go about doing my stuff ... and he sits around play psp, watch tv or just watch the women around.
11. i've planned for a spa ... i really need it. and d loves it ... but the person who massage him MUST BE A WOMAN! he keep emphasizing it. IT SO IRITATING!!!!!!!!!! it just makes me boil ... really!
he is just not helping. not helping with the housework other than occasionally vacuuming the house. even the cats's poo he will just wash his stuff and would not even pick the poo to throw it ... or at least he could wash it down the hole ... but no it's there still after he has done his stuff. i didn't pick his soccer bag that he left by the main door after his sat game ... i didn't pick his pouch that he threw on the sofa ... i BECAME THE ONE WHO TAK BOLEH HARAP ... "...slagi d tk simpan ... slagi tu tgk kan je..." ... funny kan tu? he left it there ... it's his stuff ... and yet i'm the one who's suppose to clear it? just becos he is cleaning up the guest room and vacuuming the house the whole day while i'm surfing the net.
hmm ... but didn't he realise that when i'm the one who does the work (MOST OF THE TIME) and he is there watching tv or playing game or at the computer ... did i even ask him to do anything? did i scold him for not doing it? like for instance the laundry ... it's been wash, hung and dry. clean laundry left to fold and keep ... it will remain there forever till I DID IT. did he even bother to help out?
1 day i came home with dishes not clean ... i didn't scold him. after a tiring day ... prepare his dinner ... YET HE ASK ME TO TAKE THE DISHES AWAY FROM THE TABLE ... WHILE HE ONLY NEED TO BRING HIMSELF TO THE KITCHEN TO WASH HIS HANDS. what's wrong with bringing the dishes/empty plates with him when he went into the kitchen? why can't that be done?!! is it so difficult ... it's alrite for him not to do it ... but it's NEVER alrite for me not to do it ...
Ya Allah!!! kau ambil lah nyawa ku Ya Allah! aku dah penat ... letih ... sesungguh nya aku seperti hamba yg tk bergaji ... di hina slalu SENTIASA! Ya Allah ... akhirilah tugas ku di dunia ni ... ku mohon! amin!
1. my non-stop menses but luckily after i went to see the TCM it stops finally 3 days ago after 3mths of bloody-changing-pampers-EVERYDAY! (also see: http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2008/06/my-worst-ever-marked-it-16-jun-2008.html)
2. kind of stress me out cos we're having open house this 5Nov. a good thing cos our frens wanted to see our place ... our family wanted to see our place ... this is the time!
3. bapak admitted to st luke's hospital in bt batok ... he's going to be there a long time ... but he is not helping ... he got the cheek to tell us and to even scold the student nurse when the tell the senior nurse that bapak is not taking his medicine ... WTF ... tk faham ke ape yg all these are strains to everyone and not just himself ... he practically calls me everyday ... setakat to ask what lan is doing ... hallooooo!! can't you just call lan and ask ... duhhhhhhhhh!!
4. mane mak called the other day and scold me cos d did not see her la ... did not see bapak la ... raya went off cepat didn't stay too long la ... then have iftar with my famili la (duhhh padahal anak dia sendiri wasn't there) ... she wanted to talk to d but d refuse ... dahhhh aku yg dgr dia nya bebel ... then d got the cheek to scold me and said y didn't i talk back to mak ... alllloooooo ... y didn't you??
5. d scolded me EVERYDAY!!! for little things ... like when suhaimi called to ask if d is joining the selai trip ... i should have said No. but i said will ask d and get back to him ... from behind once i hang up ... d said BODOH!!!!! asal jd bodoh!!! ckp je tk pegi ... ehhhhhhhhhhhhh yg dia tu kenapa tk ckp sendiri ngan suhaimi when he ask semlm tu ... and yet aku yg dia bodoh kan becos i didn't tell suhaimi that he is not going. apa salah nya kalo just said to me to tell him. i would have done it anyway ... but i will be less hurt.
6. the kids dah di sunat kan .. alhamdulilah all goes well. they are now running around. as usual the house in a mess. sigh!!!
7. it's alrite for d to wake up .. turn on the computer ... do whatever stuff ... see porn ... play game ... but it's NOT ALRITE for me.
8. coffee must always have ... dun have ... he will make my life miserable. even sitting down and take a breath or 2 is a NO-NO ... then he will said that i dun take care of him ... halllloooooo am i in the first place been taken care of?
9. when videos or photos i took turns alrite ... he didn't comment. didn't even said the pictures are nice for some of them. but he sure have to criticise them ... EVERY TIME! and make me feel so bad about it ... with his you-are-no-good-bodoh-woman-who-cannot-do-a-simple-task. sigh!
10. accompany me to the doc ... is as good as not there. everything i do myself. he just ade kan diri ... not supportive at all ... i go about doing my stuff ... and he sits around play psp, watch tv or just watch the women around.
11. i've planned for a spa ... i really need it. and d loves it ... but the person who massage him MUST BE A WOMAN! he keep emphasizing it. IT SO IRITATING!!!!!!!!!! it just makes me boil ... really!
he is just not helping. not helping with the housework other than occasionally vacuuming the house. even the cats's poo he will just wash his stuff and would not even pick the poo to throw it ... or at least he could wash it down the hole ... but no it's there still after he has done his stuff. i didn't pick his soccer bag that he left by the main door after his sat game ... i didn't pick his pouch that he threw on the sofa ... i BECAME THE ONE WHO TAK BOLEH HARAP ... "...slagi d tk simpan ... slagi tu tgk kan je..." ... funny kan tu? he left it there ... it's his stuff ... and yet i'm the one who's suppose to clear it? just becos he is cleaning up the guest room and vacuuming the house the whole day while i'm surfing the net.
hmm ... but didn't he realise that when i'm the one who does the work (MOST OF THE TIME) and he is there watching tv or playing game or at the computer ... did i even ask him to do anything? did i scold him for not doing it? like for instance the laundry ... it's been wash, hung and dry. clean laundry left to fold and keep ... it will remain there forever till I DID IT. did he even bother to help out?
1 day i came home with dishes not clean ... i didn't scold him. after a tiring day ... prepare his dinner ... YET HE ASK ME TO TAKE THE DISHES AWAY FROM THE TABLE ... WHILE HE ONLY NEED TO BRING HIMSELF TO THE KITCHEN TO WASH HIS HANDS. what's wrong with bringing the dishes/empty plates with him when he went into the kitchen? why can't that be done?!! is it so difficult ... it's alrite for him not to do it ... but it's NEVER alrite for me not to do it ...
Ya Allah!!! kau ambil lah nyawa ku Ya Allah! aku dah penat ... letih ... sesungguh nya aku seperti hamba yg tk bergaji ... di hina slalu SENTIASA! Ya Allah ... akhirilah tugas ku di dunia ni ... ku mohon! amin!
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