solitude ...

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i use to be able to find solitude in myself ... but somehow i lost that ... not sure why but i guess i'm just too tense ... too occupied ... to the extent that i'm not even able to flush out myself and rejuvenate ...

i worry abt the tiny bit ... fear creeps in ... then i got lost ... many a times i tried to let go ... loose that grip ... but again i find myself tighten it again ... and yet again i got hurt ... crappy kan tu?? so lame!!!

yet again i let myself got caught in the tribunal of my mind vs my emo ... *sigh* i really need an outlet ... my writings here is a means of that outlet ... but yet again once this writings is over ... ended ... i'm still caught ... still in a daze ... why? i guess only God knows why he put me in such a spot ... *big sigh*

nak menangis ... tak berairmata ...
nak ketawa ... tak bersuara ...
nak senyum ... tak terukir ...
nak marah ... tak terfikir ... 

yg berlaku pasti bersebab ...
kita hanya mampu redha ... tawakal ...
i wish there are more that we can do ... cldn't we? *big sigh*

Comments

  1. Z _01 ....5 January 2007 at 05:06

    you have it sis. its deep with in you.
    sebab, pe yang berlaku, u knw ada hikmahnya kan.
    so, hikmah berlakunya sesuatu tu, hanya orang yg mengalaminya yang nampak dan rasa.
    jd, yes, HE knows all. ask HIM.
    HE'll show you.
    Allah tu maha penyayang dan akan beri petunjuk bagi siapa yang nak.
    mmg kita redha and tawakkal. tp tdk bermakna hanya berduduk diam.
    there are ways.. in front of u.
    nampak tak?
    ask ALLAH's help.
    HE'll help you. HE never fail to please/help HIS believers. *winks*
    jgn putus asa k?

    -z

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  2. JusMoi -5 January 2007 at 15:56

    yeah ... tanpa usaha pun tak leh jgk ...
    redha ... tawakal ... hikmah ... usaha ... dugaan ... it sums up life in itself kan tu ...

    tak putus asa ... hanya rintihan hati naluri semata ... *smiles*

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  3. Z _01 ....7 January 2007 at 18:31

    alhamdulillah.. gd to know u tk putus asa. hehe
    meluahkan isi hati, its ok.
    kita kan human, tol tk.
    so anything, u're welcome to share with me k sis.
    *winks*

    -z

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  4. JusMoi -7 January 2007 at 18:43

    thks sis ... *hugsss*

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  5. Z _01 ....7 January 2007 at 19:15

    u're welcome sis... *huggsssss*

    -z

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  6. Yusni Yunos9 January 2007 at 00:09

    It is a test, patience.

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  7. JusMoi -9 January 2007 at 16:54

    look very much like it ... i'm enduring every seconds ... *eyes shut ... head bow*

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