depression again?? ...

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not again i hope ... somewhere last year ... early last year ... when people read my blog ...
i heard comments behind me that says i'm going thru' depression ... am i?
seriously i've no idea ... till i look out the meaning ...

it simply means ...
"A psychiatric disorder characterized by an inability to concentrate, insomnia, loss of appetite, anhedonia, feelings of extreme sadness, guilt, helplessness and hopelessness, and thoughts of death."

Oh ya ... "...helplessness ... hopelessness ... thoughts of death ..." that's wat it is ...
so they are right are ...

guess it's here again ...

dear ... the only reason i'm breathing today is becos of you ...
ya ... just you ... the moment u tell me u dun need me ... i guess it's goodbye!!
that's the best i could tink of at tis moment ... that's the only way out ...  

Comments

  1. XXXX YYYY12 January 2006 at 04:50

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. I am glad that you have chosen to open up and let others realised what you are going through is deep.

    Depression is very depressing by word but on a brighter note, in some stage of one's life, we all have at least experienced depression once or more.

    Yes you are right that you have found the meaning of depression but it is a very broad topic. There are different types of depression from minor to severe. Don't let what people think of you led the way feel about yourself. Only professional psychiatrist or psychologist can diagnose you with that. And if you really in need of someone to talk about your problems, please do seek for professional help or friends that you can rely on. There are many treatments for depression and it is not as complicated.

    I am glad that you are able to express your problems. And if I may, I would like to share my thought with you: When there is life, there is still love out there for you to reach.

    Keep me posted with your thoughts. I am open to hear. I am listening to you.

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  2. XXXX YYYY12 January 2006 at 18:33

    dear..i hope u r getting now..

    i have to agree with the earlier comment..let the professional decide that and not the rest of those people who can only thought u r having depression..

    i suffered a mild depression which was subscribed by the doctor when i was wid my ex..but hey..i am doing fine now..

    if i can do, im sure u can..i know u r one strong gal...we look for happiness for ourselves..always believed that He is there to give the best for us...bukan our partners or anybody...do not depend them to give us happiness but we seek for happiness..

    i am just waiting for that day when u will put an entry saying that.."hey i am so happy and feeling so very the high today!..."

    am still waiting for that entry.....

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  3. JusMoi -12 January 2006 at 20:47

    thanks dear ... multiply has become the place for me to express myself ...
    when i look to the right ... look to the left ... searching for a fren to be next to me ... i just find none ...
    but when i express myself here ... i just knew ... there are people like urself ... who just take the time to listen ... ur comments is greatly appreciated ...
    i tink i'm still indenial state of accepting the fact that i'm going thru' depression ... ya everyone would have gone thru' it ... but i believe not all of them knew that they are in that phase ... till u see the signs ... like ... 'death' ...

    there is indeed love for me to reach ... but i yearn to be reciprocate ... penat you ... asyik kita je yang kasi ... once in a while nak jugak terima kan??
    but such things are within ur control ...

    what isn't when you have financial crisis ... that's really beyond you when all doors are shut ... even your parents ... ::(

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  4. JusMoi -12 January 2006 at 20:54

    i am strong today cos i know you're there ... He is there alrite ... always ... no doubt about it ...
    but sumtimes u just need a physical being ...

    the only thing that will make me happy is being away ... away from everyone ... away seeking for joy ... i found it during my trip to UK and that's it ... it's a one time thing ... for me to travel again alone ... doubt it happen ... not in the near future ... jgn kata alone ... nak gi KL je kira2 ... sigh!!

    sumday dear ... sumday ... as much as you're waiting for my entry ... is as much as i wish i could say it ... pen it ... feel it ... sigh!!

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  5. XXXX YYYY12 January 2006 at 21:18

    "JusMoi"

    I understand that you are going through a hard time and I know it is not easy. You said that you just wished you could just get away from everyone. Would that solve your problems? Could you tell me what is the caused of what you are going through now? Did somebody hurt you terribily? WHat kind of help would you get if you need one? Are you stressed over something that you think now you are depressed?

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  6. maestro .12 January 2006 at 21:56

    :: Eh cuzz... dah dah.. depress no more. Let's de-depress ourselves!! Let's have a goddy-two-shoe gathering one day.. maybe Starbucks or sisha theraphy or whatever that fancies us all... ai mai?? ::

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  7. XXXX YYYY13 January 2006 at 00:58

    nak itot...wati..bole tak i itot? hehehe..

    just joking yah..

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  8. JusMoi -13 January 2006 at 01:06

    sure why not?? unless it's ALL cousins day ... which i'm doubtful lah ... heheheh

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  9. JusMoi -13 January 2006 at 01:07

    ai ... i'm ok w/ hanging out ... unless i'm too old for the crowd ... hahahah

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  10. JusMoi -13 January 2006 at 01:17

    i realise that i tink better when i'm alone ... cos when i'm not ... i rather not tink ...
    on the outside ... no one can tell if i'm in trouble ... i dun normally show ... not usually ... and i dun normally like to talk about me when we are in a crowd ... but even if we're alone ... that's usually not the agenda as well ... i rather we have a swell time than be absorb in my sorrows ... that's just me ...

    honestly ... i'm having a financial crunch ... something that i doubt anyone can help except myself ... but if anyone has good offer for a good paid job ... a part-time work ... that be greatful ... this is the cause of my stress hence it brings abt the depression ...
    Now i understand why one would do anything ... to all extent when it becomes the cause ... sigh!!

    hurt? i'm beyond pain ... i have not come to that pt as yet ... but if i do ... and i'm pretty sure it's just round the corner ... that's the day when i felt no more pain ... cos the pain is just too much to bear ... that's cos i've been hurt too much too many time ... that i just got immune ... pathetic kan?? and that's not good i know ... but it happened ... can't reverse it for all i want ... be it physical hurt, emotional hurt ... i dun care ... cos i just dun feel it ... it's ir-repairable ... but one thing i can ensure you ... just 1 more blow ... and i tink that's it!! not sure what ... but that's the finale ... i guess ... i tink ...

    help? entah eh ... be there for my funeral ... =) it means a lot to me ...

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  11. Natalin Tumbuck19 January 2006 at 19:55

    I'm sorry to hear yer plight but I still sought out to heal, but not only in here in Multiply.
    I read this book called The Seat of The Soul that could be recommended to help you as well.
    Then you decide if that's a depression by choice or by accident.
    We used to laugh a lot and had no fear when we were younger.
    But why is that joy becoming lesser and lesser as we grow older each day?
    Ain't we all got a serious thinking to do here?
    There's no point living if we don't feel alive.
    Wattahell is DEPRESSION anyway? And who is that bugger who invented that word?

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  12. JusMoi -21 January 2006 at 02:33

    thanks dear ... i'll have the book checked out ...

    i could never agree less with you ... why eh?
    why aren't we able to experience joy just like we used to? ... maybe we are tinking too much ... or this place is just not the place to live ...

    TRUE!!! no point living if we dun feel alive ... maybe it's the environment ... maybe it's the people ... or worst maybe it's just me ...

    i'm still seeking the answer ... sigh!

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  13. Natalin Tumbuck23 January 2006 at 19:20

    Woman, u aint nothing gotta do with ... wats that word....?? Depression?
    Hey u gotta hang out with me and I show you how.... eheheh

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