Hey dear ...

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recalling back 4-oct-2004 ... that's when i first receive your sms ... and the first i hear your voice ... i didn't fall for you then ... but i enjoy talking to you ... i look forward to receive your sms each morning ... then each day ... and now at least each week ... i didn't fall for you then ... nor do i fall for you on our first meet ... but i fell for you on our 2nd meet ...
it's been 5 years i shut myself out ... and you're the one who manage to open the "door" ... cos i trust and believe you hold the key ... i let you in ... i took small baby steps as i go ... hurting every steps i took ... nonetheless there are moments that time just stop for us ...
right from the start ... i know i am 2nd best ... i can never be her ... i can never replace her ... i dun intend to cos i do understand that, that's my lost ... she came before me ... and i can't change that ... all i want is for us to look forward ... to move on ...
if you choose to look back and regret ... or to look forward if you would be given that chance ... to have a tiny bit of hope that things are going back the way it used to ... then where does that leaves me ...
sometimes i see love in your eyes ... but when you're alone ... i'm pretty sure the love you have is for her ... help me understand why i exist ...
maybe the mistake i made was loving you more than you love me ... and trying hard to win your heart when i know my chances are slim ... and knowing no matter how much i try ... i would still be 2nd best in your life ... do i need to be patience? is there really a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? but i never regret ... not an inch of regret to make that mistake ... and i know the price that i'm paying for ... do u tink it's worth it? tell me it is ...

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  1. Haslynna -9 October 2005 at 05:38

    Hiye Sweets. Whatever may comes, hope u akan tabah menjalani dugaan hidup. Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa :)

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  2. JusMoi -9 October 2005 at 08:06

    thks dear ... i will insyaAllah ...

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