JusMoi ... My lif3sT0ry ...

"...Biler di tanya ape yg buat mi mula2 syg d ... jawapan mi kerna d syg mi lebih dari mi syg diri mi sendiri..." bukan pertama kali soalan mau pun jawapan ni di lafaz kan ... sama bunyi nya ... sama jawapannya ... maklum lah mane leh luper kan ... tu lah permulaan nya ... dan tak di nafikan ... it takes a long long long time seblom akhirnya that decision is made ... di tanya balik ... "and d? asal eh?" jawab nya ... sama dgn yg pernah di jawab "...it's the connection ... nampak mi turun dari tangga tu ... ati ni terus terpaut ... mata tak kelip2 tak lepas ... and time tu lah d dapat rasakan yg mi lah dia ... sekeliling d cuma ade mi je ..." ... it bring smiles to a face ... tul jgk ... kalo di ingat2 balik ... kalo dok and remind each other abt it ... it just glued u together again ... dan setiap yg di maafi dan sesuatu yg tak nak di ingat ... tapi harus di pelajari dari kesilapan2 itu ... me-murnikan agi hubungan itu ... dan tanpa di duga kek...

tak de road yg tak de bend ... begitu juga dgn idup ni kan? ... LIFE!!! mesti ade satu saat tu apabila kita pause dan fikir jalan mane kita nak tuju ... belok? terus? simpang? ... "...there sure to be a bend somewhere ... but it sure is not the end ... unless ... u fail to make that turn ..." idup ni tak kurang dgn suka ... duka ... tawa ... nangis ... kecewa ... bangga ... yg bezanya antara kita ... ade yg dapat lebih ... ade yg kurang ... is it enough? ... never enough? ... won't be enough? ... wat's enough? ... ya ... kata ati tu akan berbicara biler enough is enough ... ya ... ape pun tak guna nak patah balik kan? ... things happen ... all we need to do is to look forward ... kata2 yg berbisik di otak ni ... we can't make it stop ... but just listen and put ur heart to it ... maybe it did makes some sense ... my heart needs coaxing ... ati ni agi merajuk ... that's for sure!!! but i'll survive ... i'll move on ... a fren ever said this to m...

Still sane yet hurt ... doubtful is more tiring than trusting ... Sometimes it takes a rough ride before reaching a smooth path ... maybe God brings u to the path to guide ... remember there's always a blessing in everything that happened ... but watever it is ... dun allow urself to be weak and fall into that dark hole ... as tiring as it gets, enjoy and appreciate every bit of your life ... dun listen to others but take note of their views ... watever it is, you must enjoy and appreciate every bit of your life cause life is temporary ... ati ni agi merajuk ... hidup ini mesti slalu mencuba unless ur heart says that's enough is enough ... u will know and feel it when ur heart says so ...

12dec 9.27am: Mi trust d ... mi tak nafikan syg d ... mi tau d tak maksud pape ... mungkin setakat kwn ... tapi jgn main2 kan mi pls ... jgn memperbodohkan mi jus becos mi diam ... mi tak sanggup nak main game ni ... kalo d rasa d masih nak berkenalan dgn perempuan lain ... jatuh nombor ... call2 ... layan2 ... baik yg baru mau pun biskut2 d tu ... go ahead lah syg ... mi dah penat ah di bodoh2 kan .. mi cume nak d jujur ... terus terang ngan mi ... susah ke? 12dec 2.04pm: mi d nk mintak beribu ampn abt wat hapen..d tkde niat nk bodoh kn mi dan d tkde niat pape pn trhadap dia..cume hanya stakat kwn aje tk lebih... tapi kalo dia ingat yg buruk walaupun kwn tk leh k fine...d acept dan d tk kn tegur walaupn dia melintas dpn d... 12dec 3.19pm: d mi tau d ramai kwn girls ... yg ni bkn yg pertama dan bkn yg terakhir ... mungkin semua d anggap fren tapi tak semua anggap sama ... mi tau ade yg anggap lebih ... and mi tau ade yg panggil d dear, baby, syg ... btl kan? jgn bohong ngan mi p...

does bliss always last? u tell me? ... bak kata pepatah ... "...di sebalik keriangan seseorang ... pasti ade duka nya..." well the words doesn't just come from no where ... it's the fact of life ... y eh?? y when all seems to go smooth sailing ... ade aje ... maybe it's not meant to be? maybe it's a test? i'm tired of playing such games ... just plain tired ... this is where i'll say ... "...let them do unto u ... asalkan u dun do unto them..." sigh!!!

Huney injured her left hind leg. happen last week ... dah seminggu dah. we sent her to the vet ytdy. the vet, Dr. Grace Heng a beautiful sweet gentle vet at the Joyous Vet suspect she dislodged her left hip joint or maybe a fracture (ouchhh!!) but Huney doesn't feel pain when palpated ... and she's eating well as usual. In fact said she's strong cos despite her limping and flaccid, she's able to put the hind leg back in place ... and stand on it too ... bandage her hind leg up ... harness it across back/rump. gave her painkiller in case she needs them. we ask for referral for x-ray just in case if we want to have it checked further ... in the meantime she will be caged rest ... in fact she's been caged since last week after we saw her limping and flaccid. get well soon Huney ... Huney strong girl kan?? bear w/ it for 6 weeks at least k ... once u're okay we'll let u out ... PS: something i learnt ... this is wat you called secondary healing ... wher...

it's been years since i last attended a D&D (sampai can't recall when's the last time ... wakakaka) ... 8 Dec 2006 is my company D&D cum family day ... despite him finishing work late, tired and all ... he made time to come along ... theme for the day is Pink Nite ... we were both dress in pink top and black bottoms w/ black shoes ... se-dondon kata org tu kan? ... *winks* we obviously were the last to arrive ... reach The Oriental Singapore, Garden Suite (at Level 5) at about 9.30pm. They serve international buffet ... sedappppp!!!! Upon reaching ... everyone is excitedly involved in the games ... we got to see the puzzle-card game, the man-dress-up-woman game, and the who-made-the-longest-line game ... While they were busy participating ... we pulak busy eating ... enjoying our dinner ... yummmmmyyyy!!! since it's rather a small grp ... everyone of us walk away w/ a lucky draw gift ... i got myself the 14th prize presented to me by our HR Director, Mr M...

THANK YOU CIPUT ... 1stly :: thank you for remembering ... but how could u forget anyway cos we share the same date ... 2ndly :: you've dedicated a page for me ... with warm wishes ... really appreciate it ... ++++++++++++++++++ This is what he wrote: Sekitar setahun yg lalu, seorang cewek yg memperkenalkan dirinya sebagai JusMoi *padahal IDnya noelle0312 dan belakangan kutau nama aslinya Idawati ini* meng- add aku jadi contact dengan pesan singkat tapi dalam: Hey, we share the same birthday! (Hey, kita punya hari ulang tahun yg sama!) Ya, kami punya tanggal ulang tahun yg sama, yang jatuh hari ini! Secara ga baik ngucapin selamat pada diri sendiri, ya aku kirim ucapan selamat ini untuk sahabat dari negeri seberang ini (Singapore), yg ternyata orang Jawa seperti diriku.   Selamat Ulang Tahun JusMoi eh... Ida! Terima kasih untuk teman-teman yg sudah mengucap selamat ke saya (urut sesuai diterimanya pesan):   Agung Nugroho yg teriak di PMnya Ira. Eriq yg nge...

the day starts rather early for me ... mum wishing me happy birthday before she head off to masjid ... dinah pee again on my bed ... arghhhh!!! wake d up at 11am ... he came to pick me up at 12pm .. wearing his stone cold t-shirt, levis jeans and his addidas shoe ... hensem as usual ... me ... i was in my green polo and culottes w/ slippers ... we head to geylang to get his sunscreen done ... at the same time get the cig lighter works ... then head to selegie to get his air horn fix ... also get the running light ... by then all is done it's close to 5pm or so ... then we head to cameroon to have our bf cum lunch cum early dinner ... we had chix rice ... d as usual had the white chix while mine was the goreng one ... and not forgetting the chay kuay sotong ... sedapppp ... we then head to vivocity ... cool place ... got d's pink short sleeve shirt at ebose ... we shop at daiso ... went to pet safari (nothing like the one at simei) ... it's a great place to hangout...

tat's the number i am today ... (it's 1.44am when i started typing this out) how have ytdy been? d pick me up at 4.20pm ... we head to Tuas to get his petrol pump ... before we head to CCK to pick Fir up where he parked his lorry ... we then head to Teck Whye ... we the boys fixed up the neon light on d's bax global lorry ... by the time we're all done ... it's abt 8pm ... singgah lah kat umah parents dia jap ... we had dinner ... the mum cooked bening kobis and ayam goreng ... simple food but nice ... yummmmm d fell asleep after that ... he is tired ... tat i understand ... while i let him sleep ... there i was chatting away w/ his parents ... Fir has left to JB to pump petrol for his car ... after he sent his girl Shidah back ... our conversation goes from telatah nur, yani's kerenah while staying w/ them, praising Yati of being a nice person, their trips to Bali and Holland, the house, the car, Fir future and also ours ... which i tink for now ... it'...

It's his first weekend working since last i tink when we are still working at AMT. he tot it's weekdays ... him being one who knows date but always forgets the day ... our smses ... @ 8.51am to 9.11am 2Dec2006 ...aniway advance hapi birthday mi d mintk maaf 1000 ampun. D tkde sen nk beli kek n hadiah.. thks d ... btl nya advance :D ... Asal mintak maaf d? ... D lah hadiah yg tak ternilai yg mi dapat thn ni ... Tak perlu sen hanya masa, kasih, syg, hormat, jujur, setia yg mi nak ... Leh kan? Leh..syg tapi feel guilty jgk..at least mi ade kasi d card jgak Tak mo feel gitu lah k syg ... Mi faham  smile 4 mi k ... Buang perasaan tu jauh2 k ... K. syg.