each time ...

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each time the phone beeps ... rings ... my heart just ache ...
pedih ... sakit ... terguris ... marah ... benci ...
all in one ... "kopi pun tak de all in one ... sigh"

"mcm mane ni?? ... wat shld i do?? ..."
as much as i wanted to ignore ... and believe ...
the more i felt something not right ...
mcm the more me diam ... makin menjadi2 lak ...
setiap ari tak kira masa ... mesti berbunyi ... (kalo tak bunyi tu phone dia off lah tu ...)
dah berbunyi ... di layan lak ... walau pun sekejap ... layan jgk kan tu?? ...
tu yg me nampak ... yg tak nampak?? ...
do i know if he whispers sweet nothings to them?? do i??
"Good morning baby!" ... ni ape ni??!!! ni kata tak de pa pe?? sampai panggil baby2 ... tak pelat kan tu!!!
cam ne ni?? how like tat?? shld i just keep quiet? shld i say it out loud ... again!??
dah ckp ... sama je ... "tak de pa pe kan? d tak layan pe? mi pun tau di slalu ngan mi kan?"
no doubt lah i love him ... tat's no question ask ...
but i'm tired of getting hurt ... tired of going thru' such nonsense ... unnecessary stress kan ni?? ... sigh!!! sabar lah wati selagi kau leh sabar ... ape kau leh buat s'krg ... NOTHINGG!!!! (with a capital N ... ) *big sigh*

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