where i stand ...

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honestly not sure ...
i've been spending too much time w/ guy B ... while guy A as usual w/ his frens ...

guy A:
- someone who can't be married to
- someone who gives me the freedom and space
- someone who loves me but does not verbalise it
- someone who hurts me without him knowing he does so
- someone who says love and miss to someone else but not me
- someone who i think in love with someone else (read his sms)

guy B:
- someone who can be married to
- someone who loves me too much
- someone who misses me always
- someone who cares about me
- someone who knows me without knowing me
- someone who knows my whereabouts without being told
- someone who is secretive in his own ways (not something that i'm comfy about)

guy B says ...
"i've achieve 1 goal ... getting my license ...
but i've yet to achieve the other ... and that's you ... (... he tears ...)"

A difficult choice to make ... should i be making any choices in the first place? or should i just let things be ... time will tell wouldn't it?
bak kata org tu ... kalo jodoh tak ke mane kan?
guy B knows guy A exists but not guy A ...
am i being unfair to guy B ... well he knows jolly well what's the situation ... either he accepts or he walks away ... it's his choice ...
but he chose to stay ... sigh!!

so ... what now??

Comments

  1. XXXX YYYY26 May 2006 at 02:55

    sembahyang istiharah....just try it...

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  2. JusMoi -26 May 2006 at 06:04

    tu mum urge me too ... i'm just afraid of the consequences ... insyaAllah lah ... i will when the time is right ... lain cara tak de ke? u sembahyang kan me tak leh?

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  3. XXXX YYYY26 May 2006 at 08:17

    Nothing wrong being single. Many people are happy being single. Kadang kadang ada bf tambahkan problem. For me, if I'm not ever gonna get married I'll just take care of my parents. Lagi puas hati. Dapat pahala jadi anak soleh. kalau nak anak boleh pinjam anak kakak ...hehehhe. It's different but again nothing is the same.

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  4. JusMoi -26 May 2006 at 08:27

    you're absolutely rite dear ... i'm fine being single ... but i'm not shooing the existence of people who wants to love me ... i accept them rgdless but how far will our journey be? that's something to consider and tink thru' thoroughly ...
    they sure tambahkan problem ... but again being adult i'm sure benda remeh shldn't di besar2kan ...

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  5. XXXX YYYY26 May 2006 at 21:22

    afraid of the consequences...life is not to be afraid but to live with experiences..everyone has fear but i guess each of us have to face that fear kan...dari u stress kan diri u and wait and just wait..waiting is an agony too..

    kalo lah lain cara kan, ask urself who is a better one for u...no one has the answer to ur choice except u...*smilez*

    hmm..sembahyang kan u? hish..mepek kan..hehehehe....i doakan u k...hehehehe

    anyway, all the best yah in making the decision..hehe

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  6. JusMoi -27 May 2006 at 07:01

    thanks dear ... do i really have to decide? hmmm ... i wish i dun have to ...
    can i just let it pass ... whoever is still ard than they are meant to stay ... else they are not meant to be there in the first place ... makes sense??

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  7. XXXX YYYY28 May 2006 at 02:36

    pardon me but from your post, i can see a clear winner... the problem is, do you? :)

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  8. JusMoi -28 May 2006 at 06:02

    the eyes, the heart and the mind says differently ... cam ne??
    hopefully you get to see him for yourself pretty soon ... then you'll be the judge k ...

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  9. XXXX YYYY29 May 2006 at 22:12

    if u wish to do so..can also..and yes u do make sense..but do u think that is a better choice? hmmm...tak macam kasi harapan pada org lain lak ke...

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  10. JusMoi -30 May 2006 at 09:03

    not the best choice ... but one of the options ah ... tu ah dia ... kecian kan yg 1 tu ... di beri harapan ... entah akhirnya bersama ke tak ... it's something tat he has to redha ... again it's his choice ... but on the other hand ... pasal syg punya pasal he hold on ... to the xtend that it may be to his benefit or eventually he's the one who's losing out ... payah!!!!

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  11. XXXX YYYY30 May 2006 at 09:10

    Wati, sampai sekarang I tak paham pasal you and your bf. Apasal susah sangat huh? I cannot tahan lelaki playing with my feeling. I tak kasi muka. Macam dia sorang aje handsome. You missed one bus, another bus will come...heh

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  12. XXXX YYYY30 May 2006 at 09:14

    If I were you I pick the guy who I could rely on and I know that he will be a great man not only to me but also to his children

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  13. XXXX YYYY30 May 2006 at 09:22

    I vote guy B

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  14. JusMoi -30 May 2006 at 20:19

    jgn kata u dila ... me lagi tak faham ... satunya me nya org ni tak suka call things off ... i wld normally go missing ... that i'm good at ... heheheh
    tu ah yg me still hold on ...
    marah2 .. me blow up in blog ... geram2 me blow up in blog ... happy2 me blow up in blog ...
    but that's it ... no action ...
    i'm pretty sure i'm the problem one and not them ... ;)

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  15. XXXX YYYY31 May 2006 at 17:34

    hati manusia semua tak sama kan..i hope u will make the right and the best choice for yourself..whatever it is, the choice that you make may seem wrong but it may the best choice you ever make without you even realising it...

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  16. JusMoi -4 June 2006 at 09:55

    i really hope so ... but till date i'm not sure if i really really have made the choice ...
    maybe even without me realising i've already done so ... but again i'm not too certain i do ...

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  17. JusMoi -4 June 2006 at 09:56

    geez ... 1 - NIL ... hmmm ...

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  18. XXXX YYYY4 June 2006 at 21:44

    im sure u will one day...

    gua caya sama lu lah beb!! hehehe

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  19. XXXX YYYY5 June 2006 at 09:35

    my mum have always been my confidant. its in her that i seek solace and refuge. so i decided to seek some for your dilemma. and it seems that she already kinda know wats going on (hmm.. maybe our mums have blogs too..?) anyway, guy B have our votes. so its 3 - NIL... (more "hmmm.." i hear..?)

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  20. JusMoi -6 June 2006 at 00:36

    (definitely more hmmmm) hmmmm ... heheheheeh ... mums?? they sure have a way to know ... (another hmmm) hmmmm ... heren eh cam ne they can know ...
    whoa!!! 3 votes huh??
    The score is 3 - NIL ....

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