JusMoi ... My lif3sT0ry ...

It does not speaks … but it acts ... It pains not to hear … but it soothe when it's felt ... It doesn’t demand … but it sure commits ... It gives space yet it restricts … Two different individuals but yet it is one ... Beautiful ... Pain ... Pleasure ... Hurt ... Cry ... Laughter ... That's us ... Just us ...

u never know will u?? for the lucky u ... u'll know ... best time to know ... if it's a friend ... it's when a friend in need indeed ... that's why there's this saying ... "... a friend in need is a friend indeed ..." it's no wonder ... in fact i notice it ... realise it ... when it happens more often than not ... u just knew ... but i chose to ignore ... chose not to see ... (this is where my "too nice" self comes in view) *big sigh* when u're down ... they are no where in sight ... when u're up ... they are like leachers ... such hypocrites alive!!! redha je lah ... sesungguhnya aku ni hamba allah ... kalo tak kita ... tak dia ... kan?? one thing i hold ... 'dun do unto others ... if u dun want others to do unto u' ... life sucks big time!!!!

it's 3.12am here in singapore ... and the time state in this entry is 2.12pm ... which means it's based on US time ... so that's abt 12hrs behind us ... so do note (for those who didn't notice but i'm sure most do ...) anyway it's the wee hrs ... and good nyte all!!!! i'm off to bed now ... been away from work for the past 2 days cos i've been 'under the weather' ... like it or not ... with slight giddy and all ... i have to be at work tmrw ... see ya ... nite nite!!!

been a while since i last stop reading ... guess it's the holiday and festive seasons that put me away from the books ... here i am ... starting to read again ... making trips to the library and all ... time to explore new authors ... not forgetting my usual favorite authors like barbara delinsky, jude deveraux, cathy kelly, nora roberts, adele parker ... just tried on olivia goldsmith (and she's definitely my favorite author too) ... worth reading ... gonna grab another of her book ... PS: if anyone come across a book titled Pen Pals by Olivia Goldsmith ... it's the same as Insiders (as in the pic) ...

Description: with O.C and One Tree Hill ... not something that u can have these couple of months ... guess what u can hav for now (if ever u need a late nite supper) ... would be 'Whose Line Is It Anyway' ... told myself that if ever i am anywhr in their vicinity ... i might catch it live .. someday ... read on ...  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Whose_Line_Is_It_Anyway%3F_(U.S._TV_series) Ingredients: a light late nite supper ... to ease the tummy and smile before u head to bed ... Directions: prepared in 30mins tops ... be sure to add carey, ryan, wayne and colin ... nothing beats without them ...

with me staying put in chass for the next couple of months ... (dun even wish to tink couple of yrs) ... guess it's time to pen down some tots ... my decision factor ... FINANCE ... DEBTS ... with the proposed increase in pay of $2400 w/ $300 allowance ... i would be drawing $2200 at least (not deducting others like phone bills and all that) at least i wld be bringing back abt $2k a mth ... that wld be abt $200 more than past 5 yrs ... better than nothing ... unless someone out thr offers me $2800 and no less ... than it will be in par ... 1. clear my debts ... in total abt $20k-$25k .. say include all charges and all ... if i allocate abt $1k a mth to pay all these ... that will take me abt 25mths to clear ... that's abt 2yrs and 1mth ... once it stabilize ... i want to make sure i pay them on time and not late ... so to avoid any late charges and all ... so i'm determine to settle them within 2yrs max ... UOB $1582.81 (as at 30 dec 2005) DBS VISA (still active) $$1388.26...

guess that will be in my to-do list ... can't make it to go diving this march holiday ... but i'm determine to save up for one soon enough ... for now ... it's something to look forward to ... to my dearest eldest sis and bro-in-law ... have loads of fun ... sorry i 'chicken out' ... but i know u guys understand my situation ... promise me loads of pics and stories ya ... and look out for those great single unattached (if any) diver hunks ... ;)

am i?? looks like it ... well ... guess my priority is to clear and stabilize my finance for now ... career?? guess it has to wait ... let's do it before i turn 35 ... how's that?? ... maybe by then i wld earn my masters?? or maybe another degree?? let's roadmap it ... shall we?? my options are still open ... i'm still seeking for new oppurtunities ... better prospect ... if ever there is out there ... till then i'm staying put ...(still can't believe i am) ... all i need was to feedback ... my new boss says i dun't feedback and that pisses her off ... guess i've been quiet for a while ... time to talk har?? ... and one thing definite ... once things get mundane ... once i get bored ... i'm gonna sound it out ... else i die in boredom ... and if things are not to my expectations ... i've to make my move ... else makes no sense to whine and bitch but nothing sure dun get gg if it's not express ... let's just hope this is for th...

at Grand Court Vegetarian Restaurant 

:: saturday :: went for a picnic at EC ... though it's raining ... we remain put rgdless till evening ... not too crowded ... just enough people for the crowd ... tired but it has been fun ... meeting new family members ;) :: sunday :: sunday has been 1 hell of an experience ... but it's all worth it ... something that i've been wanting to try ... and i finally get to experience it ... my special thanks to Rosman, who has patiently and with lots of patience ... taught me skills that is more worth than any other skills ... that is breathing thru' my mouth with the diving apparatus ... his patience push me a step further into entering my fear of depth ... (which i've yet to conquer) ... lesson of the day FOR ME :: " ...not knowing how to swim is really not a hinder in diving ... it's having the endurance to pick up a new skill as well as to conquer my fear of depth (which i've yet to ... but soon enough ... and i will) ... " Diving is some...

sigh!! dunno what to say ... as much as i want to believe that things happen for a reason ... i also believe that ones patience and tolerance has its limits ... question is ... for how long more? what should i do? should i just give up the fight (but there seems to be no war except for myself ... my inner self)? life is shitty!!! not that i didn't try to stay positive ... i did ... but it just come to a point when u just get upset ... well that's why pple say ... it's best not to know ... but can't help it ... being me i rather know ... beats me ... i rather know than not knowing ... i rather be hurt and suffer knowing ... then not ... ya ya ... i know ... not knowing i won't get hurt ... i wouldn't be upset ... arghhhh!!! so what now?? what exactly do i want?? sigh!!! kalo ikutkan hati ... nak aje terbang far far away ... but i'm no bird ... disappear ... i'm no witch ... run ... i'm not a marathoner ... sigh!!! sit and sigh je lah ... tu je yang te...

A day trip to KL on 22nd Jan 2006 ...