pain ...

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Lyrics from song by Staind, Outside

All the times that I've cried
All this wasted, it's all inside
And I feel, all this pain
I stuffed it down, it's back again
And I lie, here in bed
All alone, I can't mend
But I feel
Tomorrow will be ok




"...you are just fucking with me..."
"...you think i'm fucking with you..."
"...i dunno..."
"...you tink i'm not serious?..."
"...i dunno..."
     .......................
"...i said it cos i want u to say something ... i want u to let it out..."
"...once again i get u to talk..."
hahaha ... so lame!!!
i'm piss ... and worst off i'm hurt ... 
so piss that i almost broke down ... 
so piss that i'm so hurt ...

me fucking with him ... 
god i can't believe it ... geeezzz ....

Comments

  1. XXXX YYYY17 November 2005 at 22:50

    loving is hurtful sometimes....just be strong k..

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  2. JusMoi -18 November 2005 at 00:17

    does it have to hurt so much? guess it will if you love the person more than the person loves you ...
    worst when he didn't say it but acted it ... and yet you know he's been naughty ...
    question next ... shld i fight, be patience or give up?? sigh!!

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  3. XXXX YYYY18 November 2005 at 03:27

    all these questions...only u can answer..u choose ur life..if u wanna be happy, then u choose to be happy..u will make urself happy...

    dear, stop feeling so low to urself..u r one beautiful person inside and out..i don really know wats happening between u n him..but it seems that he makes u cry so much..ask urself if he is worth for u? do u deserve better than him...

    jgn sekali pasrah dengan nasib kiter..tapi redha dan pasrah apa telah diberi oleh Nya..

    mungkin kini u tgh bingung..ataupon takot..i tak tau..tapi apa yg i tau..u skrang tidak gembira bersama dia..tapi sapalah i untok memberitahu apa yg terbaik bagi diri u..

    busuk dia, i tau dari tulisan u tapi baik dia..hanya u tau...weigh them and im sure u did rite..den reflect it to urself..do not be afraid to explore..i always believe..one exit to another is always a good thing if u believed in Him...

    do not get urself get stucked..kos it will drown u even though it is for sure that everyone in this world will never escape from being stuck..

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  4. JusMoi -18 November 2005 at 05:12

    entahlah ... i am happy no doubt ... but there are times when i'm hurt ...
    maybe i'm more vulnerable now than i use to ... hence i feel much hurt even if it's just a pinch ...

    sumtimes i do wonder if i do make him cry ... only God knows ...
    watever happen i feel it's my fault ... it's my flaws ... i just know it ... not becos i want to feel lowly abt myself but i tink it's my flaws ... cos it happens in the past ... it happens now ... it's definitely me kan? tak kan 2 diff people, coincidently have the same character?? maybe ...
    my ex can't tell what's my flaws ... he doesn't want to say whr my mistake is .... then what?? arghhh ...

    pasrah? redha? tink it's just a tiny line that separates the meaning of both ...
    mungkin it's written such ... that i'm just not meant to be loved ...
    i'm just afraid to be alone ... i know i shld not ... but i just am ...

    takut is definitely it ... happy ... i am dear ... honestly ...
    he gives me a measure of happiness that i just can't deny ...
    but he DOESN'T KNOW that there are things that i KNOW that he DOESN'T KNOW i know ... and that 'knowledge' hurts ...
    i can't confront him ... cos in the first place it's not right of me to be snooping ard ... w/o his permission ...
    again ... to kept silence ... that's killing me ...

    kekadang ... tul jugak kata dia ...
    things that u don't know ... u won't get hurt not knowing ...
    things that u shld not know ... u don't know ... u won't get hurt ...
    but once u know ... whr u choose to snoop ard whr u dun belong ... that's when u are hurt ... sigh!!

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  5. XXXX YYYY20 November 2005 at 21:08

    like i said...only u know how he is only u can decide wat to do nex...whatever it is...i hope u will not get stucked...and if u ever get stucked..i pray hard that you will not get stucked for a long time or forever...

    all the best dear and good luck!

    i am just a call away yah... ;-)

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  6. JusMoi -21 November 2005 at 03:07

    thanks dear ... thanks for lending me a ear to listen to my crap ...
    thanks for lending me a shoulder and cry on ...
    and arms to hug ...
    i really appreciate it ...
    thank you!

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  7. XXXX YYYY21 November 2005 at 19:02

    dear no prob to that....

    these are not ur crap..its ur emotions...and do believe emotions are able to talk tau..hehehe...

    im glad dat i can help even if its not much...anytime u need me k..just sms... :-)

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