JusMoi ... My lif3sT0ry ...

ishhh agi 29 days je?? cepattttt nya .... it's been a hectic week since last wkend. ari ni aru dpt breathe sikit ... catch up with wat need to be done. * dah antar baju kat ivy. buat aju kurung kita for hantaran nanti. * bilik pn dah ready. http://jusmoi.blogspot.sg/2008/11/work-in-progress-done.html _... * went register on thursday. d collect divorce cert dia and his court order first. then we head to ROMM. d promise that it will be his LAST . i pray this will be and he will keep his promise to me till death do us part.  "Amin! Amin! Amin! Ya Allah restukan la hubungan kami. Panjangkan lah jodoh kami hingga ari ajal kami. Berkati lah rumahtangga yg bakal kami bina. kuatkan lah iman dan cinta kami untuk mengharungi liku2 idup bersama. Hanya dengan izin Mu Ya Allah ... Amin! Amin! Amin" The registration went smoothly. it's a pleasant experience. all they ask when we individually went in to see the registrar is just to verify our particulars. NUMBER 3 has all along

hehe ... saw the entry in kak diella's for my wedding cake ... the one and only ... sad to say. i was hoping to have the 2-tier kek pulut though ... but i guess bukan rezki ... we'll make do la with the only one from kak diella je la. I've ordered a 2 tier wedding cake top ~ Rich Choc Indulgence Cake 8" round wif layered of nutella filling wif TEDDY BEAR LUVERS below ~ Brownie Temptation Cake 10" round wif wordings around cake ~ Mazlan and Idawati color theme ~ white & gold theme 10"?? hmm ... mcm small eh for a wedding cake ... hmmm

sat 22Nov we went to Yishun ... gi antar kain buat aju kurung for hantaran as well as to make 2 more for buat sembah2 nanti ... mum also send 1 for herself. i've extra also to make for Fa'i. D wanted to bring him along that day ... and we brought him. Ivy tot he is our son ... hehehe ... anyway the whole baju cost me 326 ... here's the breakdown ... 45+11 (my orange with lining that ivy has to get) 45 (my blue songket) 45+22+20 (my grey lace with lining and kain that ivy has to get. she's making pants too + fa'i's baju kurung too) 28 (mum's) 50 (d's) 60 (6 cami set with 3/4 pants and 3x shorts) mlm tu we (NT) were invited by Tora Tora (Jas aka Botak) for their anniversary. They have been around since 1979. Event at Chalet K, Changi. It's a modest event. Food, drink and gambles ... mostly guys ... the girls crowd comes from us NTs. sun 23Nov i woke up feeling kind of restless. woke up at 9am can't go back to sleep. mum and dad has been nagging

how am i? kind of ok ok actually ... but entah tk tau eh kenapa NOW i'm kind of like feeling a bit down ... feeling kind of depress ... why eh??? arghhhhh!!! i hate this feeling ... hate it! hate it! it's always not a good news!!!! arghhhhhh!!!! cam ne ni?? maybe becos last tuesday my lappie harddisk jus ka-boom and i'm left with nothing ... all my work files ... personnel files ... personal files all ka-booshhh ... but maybe there's something else?? ... arghhhH!!!!! Hows was our weekend? pretty ok ... on sat 15Nov we went to pilih aju pantin. D was late ... finish work abt 3.30pm gitu. sempat2 dia wash his lori ... hmmm we've pick white with black lace for nikah. blue songket for sanding. 3rd outfit, d wearing black coat with red shirt while i'm wearing tube wedding gown with lace outer jacket-like. we paid deposit $200 for the andaman. Kak Juli offered to do lulur, potong andam ... i take it up. She's coming over on 26Dec, Friday morning 10am to made me u

She came into our lives late Oct 2006, a raya prezzie for both of us. She's not d's first choice but we grow to love her ... She died yesterday 13 Nov 08. D return from work at 9pm and found her dead. She was buried where we buried Harley. May she rest in peace. She has lived with us for a good 2 years. tak kerenah and she get along well with smokey and harley; who have gone before her. It's sad that she didn't get the oppurtunity to live with us in the same room ... just the 3 of us ... D brought her out sometime in May 08. she will be missed!! and i'm already missing her ...

if i had to choose between a lifetime of "I'm in Love with you" and "I love you" i would go for the former. love isn't a result or a responsibility. it's a destination and MARRIAGE is one of the ways to get there. it's a journey of a chance to learn the person you're travelling with . Being mad at your partner might just be the healthiest way to get closer to him/her. couples who argue are more likely to be satisfied with their marriages than those who withdraw from conflicts. conflicts are ultimately about learning the boundaries of the relationship and needs of your partner. Oxytoxin . Touch in form of hugs, hand holding and sex stimulates the production of oxytoxin that in turn promotes a desire to touch and be touched. a feedback loop with massive benefits for both.

How's things? Not very good ... for now. what happen? well ... my worries is a killer. It's like a tumor in my heart ... in my head. i called d ... warning him not to get angry ... but of course he did la. ask him AGAIN if he is ready and if he wants to proceed with the wedding, the marriage. and the same answer i get ... of course la. (and he started to get piss) he said "tink about it ... if i'm not ready and i'm not serious ... then why would i bother with the wedding preps, talk abt what we want to do next, what we want to do in the next couple of months after the weddin. just tink abt it la." hmm ... he has a point though ... but still i WORRIED!! what abt the biskut2 yg d masih layan seh?? i'm SELFISH!! i want d all by myself and i DON'T WANT to share him with any1 else. even if it's just to reply hi .. i'm PISSED OFF ... i'm ANGRY ... i'm HURT. the last big fight we had ... watever i said tak register in his hea

Namaikitora wedding escots ...  yup! that's what we do on our Sundays at least once a month ... Our heartiest congrats to the mempelai,  wishing them the best in their marriage life. Semoga dipanjangkan jodoh, dimurahkan rezki  & berkekalan hingga akhir hayat. Here's a vid of our escot on 19Oct08 And here's a vid of our escot on 9Nov08 Enjoy the vid though the quality is a bit rough ... both vids are taken from phone cam.  More vids to come will be loaded once available. Check out:  https://www.youtube.com/user/noelle0312/featured

mimpi?? kadang mimpi ni mmg mainan tido ... but kadang mimpi juga 1 petanda. which is it this time? "we're at a strange place, spending the night together. our families were around. It seems to be our wedding the next day. Cos there i was waiting to be made up. Mak andam dah smp tp tk start to make-up2. d, the groom i presume was no where in sight. ironically there is another pengantin. the groom dah dtg bertandang and they are going for their 2nd outfit. and i'm still waiting ... when i glanced at the clock it's 12pm."  that's when i woke up ...  ishhh a strange dream indeed. come morning ... it didn't really bother me but somehow i could recall clearly the dream. on my way to work ... i sms d ... (don't ask where i got the idea to sms such ...) "Promise mi kalo d stop loving mi d will tell mi. Promise?" I'm loving him to bits ... more than he knew. d promise that he will not leave me at the altar waiting. d promise that he will

"Sungei yang tenang tak semestinya tak de current ..." the whole week is beautiful. d has been great. i'm looking forward to a weekend spending time with him. despite my painful menses and "open pipe flow" i'm looking forward to see d ... i went for my facial on sat. Pegi kat Blk 320 je. Dekat2. malas nk gi jauh2. later after facial muka sembab2 nk jln jauh2 ... malas nya. so i chose Advance Beauty  Express. The most corner shop. the owner Cris ... jambu seh. procelain complexion. initially she's like not very friendly but before she touch my face, she's alrite. i went for normal facial cost me $40. then i had my upper lip wax $10. she remove my facial hair on my chin $10. she tried the diamond peel on me for half the price $30 (UP $60) I've signed up for 3 more treatment. that's my plan actually. so she recommended me whitening treatment that includes an peel (not sure if i got that spelt correctly) but basically a treatment to treat acn