JusMoi ... My lif3sT0ry ...

"Slamat Ulang Tahun Mazlan ..." this may be the first ... but it sure aren't gonna be the last ... i promise ... me doakan ... may ur wishes come true ... Sincerely from me to you ... Why i love you? Cos you took my heart away ... Why i miss you? Cos you always makes me smile ... and Why i want you? Cos you are made for me today, tomorrow and dayS after ... insyaAllah ... amin!!   His birthday gift sure comes later ... but nevertheless it's delivered as promise ... he got his W550i on New Year Day 01Jan2007 ... *smiles*

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i'm a hornbeam tree ... a tree mostly associated with south-east england ... Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool (kadang2 need a bit of push for disciplined ... for one i'm always late ... heheheh), looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers (hmmm ... how unusual is unusual??), is seldom happy with its feelings, (true ... always doubt myself ...) mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, (slalu nah ... ishhh) very conscientious. beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life What about you?

Mine is : (mostly true except for 'T') I You are always smiling and making others smile   D You have trouble trusting people A  You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind. W  You like your privacy A  You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind. T  You have an attitude, a big one *yg ni kurang pasti lakkk ... do i?? hmmmm* I  You are always smiling and making others smile -------------------------------------------------------------------- Instructions : What you do is find out what each letter of your name means. Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU. <i>PS : If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once. </i> The Alphabets : A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind. B You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people. C You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it. D You have trouble trusting people. E You are a very exciting person. F Everyone l

there goes the 2nd IT firm i work for ... and i'm there for just 3 mths ... it sure is tough been in this competitive business scene ... it's never been easy ... cleared my desks ... packed my stuffs ... 3 full bags ... submit my last tpt claims ... switch off the aircon ... one last final look ... off the lights ... exit ... dgn langkah yg berat ... along w/ brg2 yg leh tahan berat jugak ... i left the building ... sigh!! how am i??? nak nangis tak de air mata ... nak senyum tak de tawa ... nasib si kentang pun agi mulia ... felt so lost ... never felt so lost in my entire life ... hoping for a brighter ray tomorrow ... hoping ... just hoping ... *earth calling wati* i'll be back soon ... insyaAllah ...

a depressing monday ... tried as much to put on a smile ... but kind of force myself to ... so i decided to call it a day ... 3 months have past ... begitu cepat masa berlalu ... i'm gonna miss the great people i get acquianted with ... "u guys are awesome ... lunch has nvr been the same without all of u ... Yann Bin, Shawn, Michael, Yaoshi" ... my heartfelt thanks to a great boss i knew for just a short while, Ting ... " ...You're a great man ... a great boss among all other bosses there ... you'll be miss ... " he is next to TK my former boss that i adore ... so ... wat's next? i'm lost ... totally lost right now ... god knows ... *tinking ... mane nak raya ... mane nak settle bill ... arghhhhh* *depress mode onnnzzzz* and without fail ... he's there ... surprise me while i'm having my lunch w/ my colleagues ... and came again to send me off making sure i'm safe deposited where i shld be ... "thank you d ..."

sometimes we didn't realise our actions, our words ... hurt someone ... we may usually be the someone who "bochap" abt such things ... but to others it hurts ... it's good enough if the person shows it ... but if  not ... dun u ever tink it's gonna be major each time?? if the hurt someone shows and yet we ignore to read the sign and dun bother to pester "what's wrong??!!!" ... agi jahanam!! ... things will get major within split moment ... sooo ... for people like me ... pls lah learn ... *but only when the hurt party choose to speak up* else naziibbbbb ... *lol*

Dunno what has got into me ... but just miss watching hindustan movie .. Anyone wants to watch hindustan? *smiles* Main Cast : Shah Rukh Khan, Preity Zinta, Abhishek Bachchan, Rani Mukherji, Amitabh Bachchan Director : Karan Johar (the same guy who directs Kabhi Kushie Kabhi Gham) biler tu nak gi tgk?? ** IMPORTANT :: Change of date ... so when semua free ni?? Date : *week 28Aug to 1sep ... to be advised* Time : After 7pm *most likely since it's a working day* Place : GV cinema *lum decide ah ... definitely somewhere central*

tis is what happen ... *in silhouette* *smiles*

cry and cry as i might ... nothing can change the fact ... that i lost his TRUST, his FAITH, his LOVE, his RESPECT ... what is there left? sisa2 yang i have to live with ... tak sanggup nak kehilangan him ... tak sanggup nak idup without him ... tak sanggup langkah ari2 knowing he is no where near ... silap me agi pun ... please lah k Ti ... learn from this grave mistake ... if you dun ... dun u dream ... dun u live ... PS: Thanks d syg for giving mi one last final chance ... mi tak leh imagine kalo d walk away and not turn back ... telah di takdirkan kita di JUMPA kan ... bukan kita yang mencari satu sama lain ... mengapa tidak kita dijumpakan awal2 agi ... kenapa s'krg ... takdir yang menyatukan kita ... biar ia juga yang memisahkan kita ... dan biarlah itu di akhir garisan idup kita ... seandainya mi pergi dulu ... mi nanti d di pintu syurga ... Trima kasih syg kerna ketepikan perasaan d dan memaafkan mi ... mi janji ia tak kan berulang lagi ... mi tak sanggup terjadiny

learnt this at one of those Customer Service courses i ever attended ... knowing your trigger words help you to cope with your anger ... what exactly is trigger word? it's a word that triggers ur anger ... hahahah Here's mine ... 1. faham 2. watever la 3. otak 4. kau ... aku ... (by some people) hopefully i dun have more ... else penat seh nak control anger2 ni ... but if i do ... i'll add up. so what's urs??

lebih baik mati eh dari idup?? well ... urusan kubur kita sendiri yg tanggung pe ... tak susah kan org kan?? tak de siape yg tau melainkan kita dan Dia ... siape agi tau ... kita nangis ke? sakit ke? itu semua urusan sendiri ... pandai2 lah jawab ... bukannya kita tak trima kalo nak di ngomel ... tapi kalo citernya sama je ... pagi ptg siang mlm ... ari ni ... esok ... sebln kendian ... sethn kendian ... sama je ... tak bosan ke?? bosan kan tu?!!!! mungkin sebab i never learn? don't i? "tak serik2" ... "asal lah bodoh sangat" ... "tu ah percaya kan orang sgt" ... "sayang konon" ... "mana otak nya pun tak tau lah" ... "baik sgt" ... "ni lah tak fikir" ... "org kalo tak tau susah" ... "tak penat ke" ... "tak kan tak abis2" ... ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! i had enough ah ... pls dun drive me up the wall and make me do things that i'll regret for life ... i know that life