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that's what he's doing now ... going on a holiday to Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam ... gerek kan tu??? ... he left singapore about 2.45pm w/ SQ178 ... coming back on 2nd Jan after the new year ... went w/ his frens ... frens?? hmmm ... heheheh his first time there ... me?? no idea what's there ... i know the girls are pretty kan?? or am i just being negative about things?? ... really ... no idea what's there ... but i'm pretty sure it's kind of laid back ... good place to just be away from the hustle bustle of the city ... but again has all the city fun ... like pubs, clubs, girls ... arghhhh!!! anyway ... i'm pretty sure he's having great fun there ... and leaving me behind ... *bluekkkk* ** i'm already missing him .... ::( **

ni lah kalo keja sales ... every single day at work ... in fact every single seconds ... tink about figures ... figures ... figures ... (tak nak pulak figures kat kocek ni bertambah ... sigh!!!) that's the end of my work day-year ... which basically means i've closed my sales figures for the year 2005 ... not good ah ... i'm like $30k away from my target ... arghhhhh!!! shitty kan tu!!! ... real mess up shit!! i've told my ex-boss repeatedly ... not once ... not twice but many many many times that i'm not cut out to be a sales person ... tak caya!!! tgk ah ni ... tak leh meet figures ... buat tak meet ... tak buat jgn cakap lah ... anyway no big deal ah ... buat pun tak dapat bonus ... comm pun tak seberapa ... sigh!!! lebih baik jgn buat ... guess it's really time to get out of tis messy mess that i've been hiding in for the past 5 years ... i tink it's really time ... hmmm ... what's next then???? ... ... ...

RESOLUTION ... which simply means :: "A course of action determined or decided on" ... hmmm Let's ponder ... each year ... when a new year comes ... people would go ard and ask ... "hey what's ur new year resolution huh??" .... aiyoh ... mcm dah basi gitu kan ... and each year ... you will definitely come up with a list of things that you want to do in the coming year ... which simply means ' ur course of actions ' ... lame!!! but again ... some people ... and really these are the people i salute ... really take their resolution seriously ... and they made it ... it becomes what they have set it to become ... congrats mate!!! anyway for me ... entahlah ... makin setahun demi setahun ... lebih teruk dari hari semalam ... nothing seems to come in place for me ... well well ... maybe in an area or two ... but that's like 0.000001% of 365 days ... pathetic ... so i've decided to make it a death wish instead ... or in a nicer term

is it supposed to be a happy occasion?? yeah ... i guess to some ... me? it's just another day ... it comes and it goes ... i'm still me ... the same me ... wish that when all is new ... i'll be a new me ... w/ new brains ... new life ... new heart .. new body ... new face ... pendek kata ... all new lah ... but that's all wishful thinking kan tu?? ok lah ... might as well make some speech lah kan ... since we are going into another whirlpool of 365 days of memories ... (who knows this might be my last entry ke ... hmmm) Here it goes ... 1. to my frens who are travelling and not in singapore and whom might not even be reading this ... but again who cares ... i'm jotting it down still ... i wish you happy happy ... take care ... dun be notty notty ... spend wisely ... enjoy urself to the fullest with whoever you're with ... as long as you enjoy urself ... but ... know ur limits lah ... just be happy ... let ur hair down ... 2. to those who i owe you mo

Mine is GREEN ... read on ... You're green , the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

pple would say and agree tat distance just makes the love fonder ... but being apart ... would also makes u tink all the nonsense stuff especially when u hear no news of such from the other party ... calls unanswered ... sms yes on occasion when it feels like the need to ... and that just makes u wonder and really wonder ... wat the heck is going on?? mane dia gi?? dgn siape?? ni mesti ade sumone there yg dia tak nak di ganggu?? siape lah kita ... not there in the list of IMPORTANT pple ... what the heck!!!??? ARGHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

since when has work been a chore?? am i feeling that way ... not sure ... sumtimes ... at times ... perhaps ... been one thing i believe ... as long as u dun drag urself to work every morning ... u are still ok ... which means?? work is not a chore ... u are not dragging urself to work ... maybe at times ... perhaps that's the day when u rather cuddle next to ur love ones ... heheheh question ... when do u call it quit?? ... hmmm ....

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bad dry cough ... celik je koff ... koff ... koff ubat batuk dah berbotol2 ... baik nya tidak ... vicks je ah teman setia ... arghhhh!!

my sis, Ayu insisted that me come over her place ... my BIL had ordered satay ... she had cooked nasi lemak ... she came over to pick us (me, ida and adik up) ... nak tak nak ... terpaksalah gi ... she bought a cake ... the same cake pulak tu as what bro bought ytdy ... tak pe lah ... it's the tot that counts ... upon reaching her place ... cut the cake and tat's it ... laze ard ... watch "Au Pair" on disney channel before heading home ... my BIL send us back ... ady is out jemputan ... called me at 6.45pm when he just got back ... said went to 3 jemputan ... i presume Hairil's, sam's and tai's ... again ... no wishes from him ... he really really really forgets ... this morning ... recd 2 more sms wishes from erica and zhenping ... at least they remembers ... ytdy got a msg from sabrena just before i head out ... well i miss her's by a day ... tit for tat hahahaha ...

it's 12.45am ... that's it ... my day has past 45 mins ago ... still no wishes from him ... HE FORGETS!!!! ::(( lepas maghrib tadi i went to jurong pt ... gi bayar courts nya Ady ... grab myself strawberry punch ... yikes ... berhampas ... not as nice as strawberry lime ... grab 198 to jurong east ... go collect ady's ngage and sent in the 2x 6230 that nokia can't service ... i got played out ... awi really sent in a letter asking for his hutang ... cc to my dad ... u could imagine wat my parents felt ... my mum nagging as usual ... even now while i'm typing away ... said those things like having a degree but end up with hutang keliling pinggang ... while i was out just now ... i felt like killing myself ... putting myself to sleep and never wakes up ... jumping off a bldg or even into the water ... get myself drown ... turning 30 is no fun!!! i had my fair share of tears ... mum called me when i'm in the bus gg to jurong east ... wishing me happy birthday ...

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it's still my day today ... it's 3.10pm ... i've receive smses wishing me Happy Birthday: - azli @1.44am - ifa @4.06am - ida (my elder sister) @6.27am - faridah @8.41am - audrey @10.29am - paul @1.47pm that's all i have till now ... nope ... nothing from my bf ... i really really doubt he remembers ... i called him using my private no ... at abt 6.30am ... he picked it up ... doesn't sound that he is sleeping ... doesn't sound that he is drunk ... probably he is indoor ... cos doesn't sound too noisy to be outdoor ... checked his dbs internet banking ... he drew out all $100 ytdy topping up $10 for his ezlink ... leaving $5 bucks in the account ... still pondering where the hell is sims ave branch ... whr i saw it 2x ... he draw it out ... maybe those are the 2x that he was w/ Toi?? god knows ... where is he now?? dunno ... maybe call him later ah ... me?? any plans today?? like i said no money nak plan ape seh ... ingat nak gi pedi/mani but still m

i'm here again ... last year about this time ... i remember i was at Republic of Singapore Yatch Club ... sitting all by myself crying ... eating a cake, writing a birthday card and happy getting myself a CD. by this year ... i'm here in front of this PC ... writing this journal ... which is visible only by me ... of course lah ... why would i want to share this journal w/ everyone kan?? i'm not one to tell the world that today, 3 December 2005 @12.20am is my birthday ... (well actually i was born at 9.04am) earlier today i was out w/ ady ... went to expo to get his marathon goodie bag. he is not running for the marathon ... cos tmrw he has hairil's wedding dinner to attend, the other wedding the groom just got into an accident ytdy so now in ICU ... on sunday he has Sam's (budak blk ah ...) wedding. i slept over his place last nite ... so was from his place to expo ... had bf cum lunch cum dinner @long john silver millenia walk ... after i took my bath this morn

humans .... we will never realise our mistakes unless we fell with a hard thud ... yet ... we end up doing the same mistakes again ... and again ... and again ... ironic? pathetic? well ... that's human ... isn't it too late to regret when something u take for granted today ... suddenly ... not there tomorrow ... why take for granted then in the first place? ... why not appreciate it's presence right from the start? ... ego? just plain stupidity? or just plain 'take for granted' attitude? ... i personnally think the latter is the most ideal reason ... moral of the story: appreciate ur love ones today ... cos you never know if you ever see them tomorrow ... never ever take them for granted ... cos you never know if you ever had another chance ...