JusMoi ... My lif3sT0ry ...

here it goes ... a) seven dreams before death: 1. to have a complete family with loving husband and kids 2. to have many many money that i can repay my parents 3. pergi tanah suci 4. to have assets that i can leave to my husband and kids 5. to own a house, a car 6. to have travel half the world 7. to be love b) seven things I can't do in this lifetime: 1. getting pregnant before i'm married 2. have a tattoo 3. to eat anything alive 4. to kill someone 5. to convert to other religion 6. to be a multimillionaire 7. to eat pork c) seven things that attract me: 1. hardrock bears 2. beautiful babies  3. everything vintage 4. soft leather 5. soft, cuddly bears 6. songket 7. everything apple (apple the fruit, apple the computer brand) d) seven things i say: 1. sial ah 2. babe 3. allo 4. muakk 5. sayang 6. aisey man 7. macam nak lari jauh2 e) seven books that i love: 1. books by Emily Barr (so far read one titled "Atlantic Shift" -- powerr!!) 2. books by Barbara Delinsky 3. bo

Maybe it's just a coincidence ... or maybe not ... maybe it's just how He wants it to be written ... that's our life ... summarise it in brief ... with a common numerical attached to it ... if only ... we were to meet in 1993 ... that's 13 years ago ... that's the day we will meet at the padang celebrating our national day ... he on duty (army lah ... roaming ard) while me in my first year of poly participating in one of the contingent (badmintion theme) ... maybe by now we would have 3 kids of our own ... wakakaka ... the first time he lay his eyes on me ... it's in March ... the 3rd month in the year 2006 it will be 3 months now since that fateful day he lay his eyes on me ... the day we would call our own ... that would be 13 april ... we both are the 3rd child in the family ... 3 has always been and will forever be my favorite number ... i was born on the 3rd day of the month ... (that's why i like the number 3 ... heheheh) i'm 3rd in line

well the holiday is coming to an end ... my sis decide to bring the kids out for some fun. a day spent swimming at CCK swimming complex, before heading to IMM for dinner.  The next day ... we went to the goat farm again ... cos the last time afi didn't get to join us ... had a sip of the goat milk ... we then head to sungei buloh nature reserve ... weather is so hot ... not spared by the mosquitoes ... it was an refreshing trip ... stop by the koi farm on our way back ... head to jurong point for dinner ... lastly stop at punggol point for a breather before we call it a day ...

Kena tag ngan si rai (raisreflections) daaaa ... 7 random facts about me: patience, easy-going, warm, stubborn, fat, too nice, honest 7 things that scare me: cockroach, debts, bills, no money, getting married, without kids, depression 7 random music at the moment: Amuk-Matahari, Awie-Iris, Amuk-Aku Mahu Pulang, Exist-Janji Padamu, Once-Dealova, Ungu-Demi Waktu, Ungu-Tercipa Untukmu *ni lah lagu2 power masa tgh depress ... 7 things i say the most: sial lah, soyal, aisey man, babe, rileks ah, sigh, "i want to run away" 7 people to do this: ciput, maes2rology, minahkampung, characters, silv3rfox, kreow, dada04 *apa lagi korang nya turn ah ...

before returning the car ... went to Ghim Moh ... Yup ... tat's where i spent the early days of my life ... a town tat's close to my heart ... it's also the place that i equipped myself w/ knowledge that brings me to who i am today ... my primary and secondary school ... the beancurd ... it's still there alrite ... so excited when i get my bowl ... heaven!!! nothing change ... absolutely nothing ... most of it ah ... ;)

again we rented a car ... tis time Hyundai Matrix ... heheheh ... if given a choice he wld not want to drive it ... but leaving w/ no choice ... i won ... heheheh ... ngomel seh half the way to pick my sister and the kids up ... layan kan je ah ... it's the phase of getting use to ... so jap agi sure ok ...  we went to the cow farm ... didn't get to go any other farms cos by the time we're there it's about 5pm ... so we head to the playground ... i remember this place very well ... it's where zalinah and asrafi had their wedding outdoor shoot ... i was thr sibuk2 w/ them ... didn't recall being there until i saw the breakwater and the bridges ... teringat2 diaorg masa take photo tu ... semua dah puas main … went for toilet break before heading to the jetty … people just got back from collecting mussels … berbaldi2 seh … ari pun dah gelap … we drive out for dinner ... on the way drive thru’ pusara aman … konon nak adventure ah … but fikirkan ade kids … we u-tu

these are names that's currently playing in my head ... mcm zombie me dibuatnya ... names ... that i would have guess would exist ... but yet never expects ... Mazlan Maryati Marzuki Mazreena Maznawie Suriani Nur Fatehah they exists for a reason ... but are they staying?

All i can say is ... fate just has it's way ... it's just playing games with me ... kalo ikut kan ati ... nak je lari jauh2 ... far far away from here ... hopping from one place to another ... dun want to be found unless i find them ... GOD!!! HE meddles well in my life affairs ... sigh!!!

Sayang tu tak berbentuk ... Ia hanya dapat di rasa oleh mereka yang di sayangi juga yang menyayangi ... Tak cukup hanya dengan kata-kata ... ia harus di tunjuk kan ... Mata tak pernah berbohong ... Renungi lah ia dengan hati yang ikhlas lagi bersih ... InsyaAllah di situlah jawapan nya ... Translated in English ... Affection is intangible ... It can only be felt by those who is affectionate for one another ... Words alone is not enough ... It has to be shown ... The eyes never lies ... Look into the eyes with a sincere heart ... And there lies your answers ...

Pull too hard the string breaks ... Hold on tight, it MAY fly away ... Hold it loose, it MAY terlepas too ... Tactic nya to fly it well ... To understand the kite and the wind that blows it ... simply means ... fahami lah orang itu dan keadaan nya ... InsyaAllah it's yours to keep ...

we rented our 3rd car ... this time it's proton wira 1.5(A) $50 a day je ... pick up slow ... but car good condition ... worth the penny spent ... the 2nd time is Nissan super saloon 1.6(A) ... $70 a day ... (go out celebrating my sis, Ida's birthday) both cars from Express Car Rental somewhere near to Aljunied MRT ... 96253682 ... tis time ingat kan nak hang out w/ his buddy ... but the buddy gf cldn't make it ... so on wif Plan B ... after work he fetch me and faridah, we had dinner at Adam Road. Wan (Faridah's fiance) join us soon after. sent them back home ... and fetch my sis, Ida and my niece, Dinah @Tampines. Off we head to Lau Pa Sat ... for late nite supper ... before heading home ... PS: wif his permission ... i expose his identity ... putting a face to the recent actor in my story ...

with the rented car ... off we went to bring the kids to the goat farm ... tak plan actually just zoom ard and stop by since we're there ... it's at 3 Lim Chu Kang Lane 4 ...

located @9A Lock Road. The place do not accept reservation ... so be there early to grab ur seats. People hang ard there even till the bar counter close ... well it's an open concept place so no doors to close u out ... go check it out!!! cool place to hang out w/ a bunch of frens ...

it's funny how things become ... i always finds it hard to believe how people can be so much in love ... loving ... when they just got to know each other for only months ... and tup tup tup ... dah plan nak married lah ... engaged lah ... and all tat ...i dun deny the fact that i've seen quite a plenty ... you may know a person for years ... but you may not necessarily end up with him/her ... they are cases where it happens but they are cases where it does not ... so ... question is ... " is time really a factor? " my answer to my own question ... hehehehe " i guess it really doesn't matter ... how short or how long u knew that person ... i guess it's not a matter of time ... but how much you really want to get to know him/her ... how much you really made an effort to know him/her ... time just tell ... but it's not a determine factor ..."

here it is ... i was told we are moving to bukit batok ... arghhhh!!! though it's near to home ... i'm not really too keen to move ... but not my choice to make ... so for now ... it's bare ... just the minimal and necessity ... till i move to my new refuge then i'll settle down ... counting down ... 20 days to go ... PS: my desk will not be complete with at least a bear ... and that's my companion ... else otak mati seh tak leh work ...